what the hell is wrong with me. i've gotten lazy smoking more. eating more gaining weight. i skipped out of pt today. this is not going to help me get on the teams. i have to start pushing myself. finding new limits. i'm thinking of going into the woods by myself fort a few days. bringing only a few things. i know i'll get beat up out there. cut i ( Read more... )

thtoday well in the morning i got smoked. got called at 8 in the morning. i was tired half drunk and hung over. had to go to office than do pt. then i hung out with sean. we went around town and hung out. went to see his wife at work. i told him i envy him 21 got a house nice vehicle and a great wife. i was there till like 11 then went to circle. ( Read more... )

last night i realized something. i really need to change. i need to try to be truely happy. i've been working on faults i've seen in my life. i need to quit drinking aside from a beer once in awhile. not alot of people showed up for the barbque. but it was fun. robyn and erin showed up. i was hoping zach would. never did. i watched dogma the other ( Read more... )

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CAUTIONIN THE INTEREST OF SAFETY IT IS ADVISABLE TO KEEP VALCROSS AWAY FROM FIRE AND FLAMES.
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well s the legandary bird does so shall i. i crashed and burned hit rock bottom. but now i'm rising. i feel myself coming back. i am regaining my power and ascending bnack to my throne. those times in past a temporary loss. each time i fall i come bak with more knoledge more strength. i change i surpass what once was. for awhile i've been down ( Read more... )

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here is my update. last three days were hell no food and ranch work. wouldn't be so bad if i ate, but i can't. i've worked hard for this. i've come close to breaking alot. i need to do it though. this training will make me better. i still think of my ex and tht's a problem. i can't be doing that. i need to just go back be the demon i once was. i ( Read more... )

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