a long time coming
here is my update. last three days were hell no food and ranch work. wouldn't be so bad if i ate, but i can't. i've worked hard for this. i've come close to breaking alot. i need to do it though. this training will make me better. i still think of my ex and tht's a problem. i can't be doing that. i need to just go back be the demon i once was. i loved that. people were there till they became useless to me. till they didn't serve the purpose of anything i needed. nothing could affect me. there was no pain no hurt exccept that of others. lol. if i can do that everything will be easier.
in other news i leave the 14 if down to weight. i've been cutting weight so i should be good. my days are counting down. i don't expect anyone to show for my grad. except my parents. so i'm not expecting much. who knows.
in other news i leave the 14 if down to weight. i've been cutting weight so i should be good. my days are counting down. i don't expect anyone to show for my grad. except my parents. so i'm not expecting much. who knows.