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I want to go some place new. I want to do something exciting. I want an adventure so bad it makes me sick. I need a change. Of pace, of place, of attitude and time. The old tricks aren’t working any more. I need a vacation. I’ve grown so exhausted of this routine. I’ve been dreaming of trying a new dream on for size. Throwing myself head first into ( Read more... )

I imagined your thighs being the color of heavy cream even though I could see from the way the hem of your dress flirted and kissed your knees that they were a syrupy, sun-kissed caramel. I saw your photo the other day. You’re still beautiful. It made me remember that time I came over just to watch you do laundry. My breath stuck in my throat the ( Read more... )

How do people I once talked to several times a week inexplicably become people I only talk to a couple times a year? The same question applies to the reverse. What compels me to reconnect to people I was once distant from? It all seems so random and arbitrary, at times. I wish there was a scientific explanation to help me understand why, as time ( Read more... )

I still wish for happy endings when I watch movies. I wonder if that makes me childish? Maybe childish is the wrong word. I don't think it makes me naive, because its not like I expect things to end happily. I just wish they would. Whether I'm presented with the bleakest of bleak scenarios or a coin toss that could go one way or the other, I spend ( Read more... )

Jefferson Smith: Just get up off the ground, that's all I ask. Get up there with that lady that's up on top of this Capitol dome, that lady that stands for liberty. Take a look at this country through her eyes if you really want to see something. And you won't just see scenery; you'll see the whole parade of what Man's carved out for himself, after ( Read more... )

"The goals we pursue are always veiled. A girl who longs for marriage longs for something she knows nothing about. The boy who hankers after fame has no idea what fame is. The thing that gives our every move its meaning is always totally unknown to us."
-The Unbearable Lightness of BeingAs a child growing up in Kentucky I lived for snow days. I ( Read more... )

For the record: I am not depressed. I think I would know. I mean, I've been depressed before, so, I know how to spot it. The morbid daily thoughts of suicide and self-harm are a big tip-off. I'm not having those. Even though some things have been going wrong in the past few months, I haven't thought of killing myself or cried for hours about them. ( Read more... )

Geography on the brain makes my heart palpitate. My entire chest swells like a shiny translucent rubber balloon threatening to explode. I am always in two places or more at once. Divided and dissected like a tenth grade lab project. Most days I think getting my heart, body, and mind in congruence would require no less than an act of God. Which is ( Read more... )

$528 was stolen from me. Here’s how you can help.For the last month and a half I have been working my ass off and saving money to be able to move into a new apartment. After paying rent and utilities and spending money on food I had managed to save up a grand total of $528. Wednesday night, last week, I was called into work to help tear down a ( Read more... )