Summer in brief ( Read more... )

Well, the summer has been a bit of and inbetweeny one for me.  It started off with me finishing working at Woodfield Special School.  This probably came at the right time for me, my patience was starting to wain, my brain was starting to rot and I didn't feel as though I particularly fit in amongst the staff.  The lack of social acceptance was ( Read more... )

I'm becoming more and more depressed of late.  I'm mostly able to cope with working during the day even though my mind's not on it and am still exercising in the evenings, but at night I get a huge wave of negative, agitated energy come over me and I'm not able to relax enough to go to bed.  I often end up hitting, kicking, punching and biting ( Read more... )

Fucking hell, I'm still so pathetically lonely.  I have no real friends.  I have such a strong need for close companionship that I don't know how to act around people anymore.  I ooze desperation ( Read more... )

I have finally decided what I am doing next year.  I was deciding between the music degrees at Goldsmiths and City & Guildhall and also the flexible programme at Trinity, but have now accepted a place on the course joint between City University and Guildhall College of Music and Drama.  The academic study is at City and the instrumental lessons are ( Read more... )

It's been a while!  Since last writing I have been on a trip to Eilat.  I went with my parents and brother, which perhaps seems a little odd at the age of 24, but I actually got on with my parents ok.  My brother and I however, are a completely different story; we just don't get on at all!  We are very different people in terms of personalities and ( Read more... )

As most of you will know, I work at secondary school for children with learning disabilities, otherwise know at a "special school."  At the moment I really don't see what is so "special" about it.  Our students have very individual needs, they are indeed special and the curriculum we teach should be suitably specialised towards these needs in order ( Read more... )

I have an increasing suspicion that chavs are going to rule the world.  I know this sounds paranoid, but they seem to be growing in numbers, breeding early and teaching their children to be generally inconsiderate or just generally neglecting/abusing their children.   Their attempts at inciting fear are evermore successful.  Aside from the knife ( Read more... )

The situation is Gaza and Israel is incredibly depressing.  Both Gaza citizens and Israeli's are suffering terribly at the hands of Hamas.  I don't want to get into a huge argument about this, as I'm finding the whole situation too depressing and frustrating to even discuss.  I ended up (literally) hitting my head hard against a wall in frustration ( Read more... )

I've largely just moaned in here over the past few months, so I thought I'd write about something a bit more optimistic on here instead!  I'm enjoying all things musicy in my life at the moment, but am uncertain of what next year holds in that department and probably have some pretty big decisions to make ( Read more... )