Usually I write these posts at night before I go to sleep. It's morning and I've just awakened. Thursday felt so like Friday I was tempted to not go to school on Friday. I'm glad I did go, though judging by the number of people absent from class Friday, I wasn't the only one tempted ( Read more... )

So, it's been over a mobth since I last posted here. I've been busy. I've finally got a new job, and it's a good job. I'm working as a student assistant to the Texas Tech Library's Southwest Special Collections. It's a really good job for me. I'm left by myself for the most part, and get to pretty much set my own hours. My only real limitation ( Read more... )

It's been over a month since my last entry. A lot has happened. I quit my job which has its benefits and its drawbacks. On the upside my depression has lessened considerably, on the downside we're really missing the income. As in we couldn't pay our (cell) phone bill and they got cut off Thursday or Friday, and our internet, cable, and house phone ( Read more... )

Not sure why I'm writing tonight. Nothing really interesting happened today. Work was work, unpleasant but almost bearable. Afterwards I got nothing done I wanted to. That would be getting started on my homework. Instead I was sleepy so I took a nap. I set my alarm planning to only sleep for an hour or so, but apparently slept through it, and most ( Read more... )

It's been a month or so since my last entry. Between school and work, I have precious little time for anything else. I mean I eat (usually 2 meals a day), shower, brush/floss my teeth, and sleep a little. At the advice of my councilor I also carve out a little time a few days a week to do stuff I enjoy. That's mainly working on my RPG settings. ( Read more... )

Not really. I did stay home from work today but I was sick. Nothing major, just a stomach bug. It's been a while since I last posted, but a combination of being super busy, and not having much to post about has kept me away ( Read more... )

I know I'm posting just to avoid going to sleep. I'm not sure why I want to avoid going to sleep. Maybe because tomorrow brings another 8 hours of the hell (for me) that is my job. That's the only thing I can think of. I'm tired, I'm sleepy I've been up for 18 hours. I should go to sleep, but I feel an urge to find excuses to stay awake ( Read more... )

I'm feeling a little better today, though I think after I write this I'll probably go back to sleep (or try to) for a bit. I talked with my counselor Thursday morning about my sudden depression Wednesday night, and it seems likely that it was the prospect of going back to work Thursday that triggered the depression. I managed three more nights of ( Read more... )

Trying to sleep last night the bed felt wrong. I guess it's just weird not having Cha there. I think if I hadn't been so tired I might have had trouble sleeping. I still feel tired despite getting almost 12 hours of sleep ( Read more... )

Tonight work really sucked. I don't know why it seemed so much worse than usual, but it did. It might be that we're getting summer levels of business, but are still working with winter staffing. It might be that I'm just missing Cha. All I know for certain is I'm really dreading going to work tomorrow ( Read more... )