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Gaining trust chapter 15
Title - Gaining trust
Author -
ortsi
Beta - not yet
Chapter - 15/??
Genre- Drama, AU
Rating - R - NC17
Pairing - AoixUruha, few side pairings.
Bands - the GazettE (main), SCREW(apperances), Alice nine(apperances)
Warnings - Rape
Diclaimers - Don't own them.
Summary - Uruha had experienced horrible time and now he finally found someone.
A/N - There probably will be sex in future chapters but not sure.
Chapter 1 - Chapter 2 - Chapter 3 - Chapter 4 - Chapter 5 - Chapter 6 - Chapter 7 - Chapter 8 - Chapter 9 - Chapter 10 - Chapter 11 - Chapter 12 - Chapter 13 - Chapter 14 - Chapter 15 -
Opening eyes slowly, Uruha rubbed them still feeling little drowsy. Looking around, he realized he wasn’t in his own bed like he used to be every time. “Oh right.” He mumbled as he remembered what had happened. Getting up from the couch Uruha stretched a little. It had been nice to sleep in it. Just like Aoi had said, it had been nicer than it had looked.
Wondering if Aoi were still sleeping he tried to be quiet as possible as he made his way to kitchen, wanting badly to drink some water. As he stepped inside of kitchen he saw Aoi already sitting on kitchen chair and drinking coffee. “Morning.” He greeted.
“Morning sleepy head. “ Aoi said chuckling. “Take what you want but I warn you I don’t have much.” He didn’t move his gaze from paper he was reading. He had been awake for couple of hours; he didn’t need to sleep long anyhow.
Rising eyebrow Uruha walked to fridge and opened it. There wasn’t much to take and he didn’t wanted to eat someone else’s food, so he chose to only drink that glass of water. Silently he sat on the chair opposite to Aoi and drank the water pretty quickly.
Few moments went by without saying a word to each other before Aoi placed the paper down and got up taking his now empty coffee mug to kitchen sink. “What are you doing today?” He asked as he leaned against counter.
Looking down at the glass Uruha said. “Nothing…”
“So you have free day from work?”
Uruha shook his head as a no. “I don’t have working place. I have nothing…”
Feeling a little awkward Aoi walked next to Uruha. “I have to get later today to work… Why you don’t have work place? “As other stayed silent, Aoi continued to make his way to living room assuming Uruha wasn’t going to answer. He went to clean up the bed away from the couch. After doing that he walked back to kitchen, only to find Uruha deep in his thoughts. Small grin appeared to his lips. Quietly walking next to other he ruffled younger one’s messy hair. “Why don’t you get up and do something to your look so we can go out to eat something. You don’t live with only water, you know.” He said chuckling slightly.
Blushing at other’s touch Uruha got quickly up and made his way to bathroom, hoping Aoi wouldn’t mind if he used the brush what he had seen in the there earlier. He didn’t want to go out to eat, he wasn’t in the mood for that and he could wait till he got back home.
Frowning Aoi watched after Uruha. Why was he this silent? It was hard to say anything to him since younger shut himself from the world. Knocking bathroom door after couple minutes had passed. “Ruha, are you okay?” There was no answer but just when he was about to knock again he heard voice saying he should wait a little longer.
“Sorry to take so long.” Uruha came out of the bathroom giving small apologizing nod.
“Don’t worry about it. Umm, listen. I want to ask something.” Feeling uneasy under Uruha’s observing eyes. He couldn’t understand how he could feel uneasy with Uruha, when he was always confident and knowing what he liked and not outside of his house. Saga was only one who knew his darker side. He had pushed it down, not giving it chance to show itself to anyone and letting people think he was what he was today. “I need you to answer on this and talk to me. Why can’t I touch you more closely?” As soon as he ended his sentence Aoi realized how his words had come out. It wasn’t supposed to sound like that. But of course he wanted to learn about other more and touch Uruha more privately.
Frowning Uruha walked past Aoi feeling hurt inside. “You should just go to work and leave me be.”
Aoi ran hand through his hair. “You should get a job as well you know.” Stating like it was most obvious thing in the world.
Freezing to his spot Uruha bit his lip. He knew he should get a new work place but there were no place where enough quiet for him to work. “I can’t.” Words left his lips silently barely hearable.
“Why not? You aren’t mentally sick or anything.”
Biting lip harder Uruha shook his head. ‘Only if you knew why…” Thought ran through his head as he kneeled down to reach for his shoes but before he could reach them he was pulled back and thrown on the couch.
“Tell me. I’m not going to let you leave before you tell me. You know, even Reita said that there is something what wasn’t his place to tell what it is and I need to know…Now!” Noticing fear in Uruha’s eyes Aoi felt bad for shouting at other and wanted give a hug but he didn’t knew if it was his place to do so.
Uruha quickly lifted his arms to protect himself from harm. It wasn’t very good protection and he wasn’t in shape for a fight. His lips formed thin line and his heart kept beating faster and faster as he got more scared as he waited something to happen.
Worried yet surprised voice reached Uruha’s ears. “Uruha? Uruha?” Slowly he lowered his arms to see what Aoi was doing and there he was standing in very same place as he had been with confused look in his eyes. “Please take me home.” Uruha pleaded.
All Aoi could do was a nod as he went to get the car keys. Sitting next to Uruha in the car, he placed key to keyhole and started the engine. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to be rough.” No one had ever gotten scared of his actions.
“I used to like rough...I used to be lively…I used to be lot of things what I’m not today. I’m dirty.”
Aoi couldn’t understand a word Uruha was mumbling. He heard them but why he had changed so much from what he used to be.” How come you are dirty? You look cute like you have always been.”
Slightly blushing he turned his head away, not bearing to see Aoi’s reaction when he spit his darkest secret. “I was raped.” Being sure Aoi wouldn’t want to touch him anymore his eyes got teary. It would have been all too beautiful if he and his crush would have gotten together and started their own story regardless of what everyone else was saying.
“Does police know?”
Nodding barely seeable Uruha once again bit his lip, trying his best to prevent tears from flowing. He felt dirty feeling coming back to his skin and he needed to wash it off soon. Skin would turn red for a few days as he tried his best to scrub the dirty feeling away.
Drive back to Uruha’s house was silent, not a single word was exchanged. And by the time they arrived front of his home he was crying. It had been what he had expected; Aoi wouldn’t want to be around him anymore. Grabbing door handle he said trying to hide his sadness from his voice. “Thanks for everything. It had been nice.” Keeping small pause before continuing. “I understand that you don’t want to see me anymore.”
Through the whole drive Aoi had focused on the road while his mind was racing as he tried to process what he had just heard. Aoi kept looking front of him but he grabbed Uruha’s arm, simply saying. “No.” What Uruha had told had explained a lot of younger one’s behavior. “I need time to think. I will contact you.”
“Ok.” Uruha wasn’t going to keep his hopes up. After all he had lost so much past few months and it wouldn’t be surprise if Aoi decided to disappear as well.
Stepping inside of his home he felt relieved. There wouldn’t be anyone who would judge him under his own roof. But sudden voice startled him.
“Where have you been?! I have been worrying!”
Turning his head away, not wanting Reita to see his teary face, he walked quickly to his room closing the door behind him.
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Author -
ortsi
Beta - not yet
Chapter - 15/??
Genre- Drama, AU
Rating - R - NC17
Pairing - AoixUruha, few side pairings.
Bands - the GazettE (main), SCREW(apperances), Alice nine(apperances)
Warnings - Rape
Diclaimers - Don't own them.
Summary - Uruha had experienced horrible time and now he finally found someone.
A/N - There probably will be sex in future chapters but not sure.
Chapter 1 - Chapter 2 - Chapter 3 - Chapter 4 - Chapter 5 - Chapter 6 - Chapter 7 - Chapter 8 - Chapter 9 - Chapter 10 - Chapter 11 - Chapter 12 - Chapter 13 - Chapter 14 - Chapter 15 -
Opening eyes slowly, Uruha rubbed them still feeling little drowsy. Looking around, he realized he wasn’t in his own bed like he used to be every time. “Oh right.” He mumbled as he remembered what had happened. Getting up from the couch Uruha stretched a little. It had been nice to sleep in it. Just like Aoi had said, it had been nicer than it had looked.
Wondering if Aoi were still sleeping he tried to be quiet as possible as he made his way to kitchen, wanting badly to drink some water. As he stepped inside of kitchen he saw Aoi already sitting on kitchen chair and drinking coffee. “Morning.” He greeted.
“Morning sleepy head. “ Aoi said chuckling. “Take what you want but I warn you I don’t have much.” He didn’t move his gaze from paper he was reading. He had been awake for couple of hours; he didn’t need to sleep long anyhow.
Rising eyebrow Uruha walked to fridge and opened it. There wasn’t much to take and he didn’t wanted to eat someone else’s food, so he chose to only drink that glass of water. Silently he sat on the chair opposite to Aoi and drank the water pretty quickly.
Few moments went by without saying a word to each other before Aoi placed the paper down and got up taking his now empty coffee mug to kitchen sink. “What are you doing today?” He asked as he leaned against counter.
Looking down at the glass Uruha said. “Nothing…”
“So you have free day from work?”
Uruha shook his head as a no. “I don’t have working place. I have nothing…”
Feeling a little awkward Aoi walked next to Uruha. “I have to get later today to work… Why you don’t have work place? “As other stayed silent, Aoi continued to make his way to living room assuming Uruha wasn’t going to answer. He went to clean up the bed away from the couch. After doing that he walked back to kitchen, only to find Uruha deep in his thoughts. Small grin appeared to his lips. Quietly walking next to other he ruffled younger one’s messy hair. “Why don’t you get up and do something to your look so we can go out to eat something. You don’t live with only water, you know.” He said chuckling slightly.
Blushing at other’s touch Uruha got quickly up and made his way to bathroom, hoping Aoi wouldn’t mind if he used the brush what he had seen in the there earlier. He didn’t want to go out to eat, he wasn’t in the mood for that and he could wait till he got back home.
Frowning Aoi watched after Uruha. Why was he this silent? It was hard to say anything to him since younger shut himself from the world. Knocking bathroom door after couple minutes had passed. “Ruha, are you okay?” There was no answer but just when he was about to knock again he heard voice saying he should wait a little longer.
“Sorry to take so long.” Uruha came out of the bathroom giving small apologizing nod.
“Don’t worry about it. Umm, listen. I want to ask something.” Feeling uneasy under Uruha’s observing eyes. He couldn’t understand how he could feel uneasy with Uruha, when he was always confident and knowing what he liked and not outside of his house. Saga was only one who knew his darker side. He had pushed it down, not giving it chance to show itself to anyone and letting people think he was what he was today. “I need you to answer on this and talk to me. Why can’t I touch you more closely?” As soon as he ended his sentence Aoi realized how his words had come out. It wasn’t supposed to sound like that. But of course he wanted to learn about other more and touch Uruha more privately.
Frowning Uruha walked past Aoi feeling hurt inside. “You should just go to work and leave me be.”
Aoi ran hand through his hair. “You should get a job as well you know.” Stating like it was most obvious thing in the world.
Freezing to his spot Uruha bit his lip. He knew he should get a new work place but there were no place where enough quiet for him to work. “I can’t.” Words left his lips silently barely hearable.
“Why not? You aren’t mentally sick or anything.”
Biting lip harder Uruha shook his head. ‘Only if you knew why…” Thought ran through his head as he kneeled down to reach for his shoes but before he could reach them he was pulled back and thrown on the couch.
“Tell me. I’m not going to let you leave before you tell me. You know, even Reita said that there is something what wasn’t his place to tell what it is and I need to know…Now!” Noticing fear in Uruha’s eyes Aoi felt bad for shouting at other and wanted give a hug but he didn’t knew if it was his place to do so.
Uruha quickly lifted his arms to protect himself from harm. It wasn’t very good protection and he wasn’t in shape for a fight. His lips formed thin line and his heart kept beating faster and faster as he got more scared as he waited something to happen.
Worried yet surprised voice reached Uruha’s ears. “Uruha? Uruha?” Slowly he lowered his arms to see what Aoi was doing and there he was standing in very same place as he had been with confused look in his eyes. “Please take me home.” Uruha pleaded.
All Aoi could do was a nod as he went to get the car keys. Sitting next to Uruha in the car, he placed key to keyhole and started the engine. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to be rough.” No one had ever gotten scared of his actions.
“I used to like rough...I used to be lively…I used to be lot of things what I’m not today. I’m dirty.”
Aoi couldn’t understand a word Uruha was mumbling. He heard them but why he had changed so much from what he used to be.” How come you are dirty? You look cute like you have always been.”
Slightly blushing he turned his head away, not bearing to see Aoi’s reaction when he spit his darkest secret. “I was raped.” Being sure Aoi wouldn’t want to touch him anymore his eyes got teary. It would have been all too beautiful if he and his crush would have gotten together and started their own story regardless of what everyone else was saying.
“Does police know?”
Nodding barely seeable Uruha once again bit his lip, trying his best to prevent tears from flowing. He felt dirty feeling coming back to his skin and he needed to wash it off soon. Skin would turn red for a few days as he tried his best to scrub the dirty feeling away.
Drive back to Uruha’s house was silent, not a single word was exchanged. And by the time they arrived front of his home he was crying. It had been what he had expected; Aoi wouldn’t want to be around him anymore. Grabbing door handle he said trying to hide his sadness from his voice. “Thanks for everything. It had been nice.” Keeping small pause before continuing. “I understand that you don’t want to see me anymore.”
Through the whole drive Aoi had focused on the road while his mind was racing as he tried to process what he had just heard. Aoi kept looking front of him but he grabbed Uruha’s arm, simply saying. “No.” What Uruha had told had explained a lot of younger one’s behavior. “I need time to think. I will contact you.”
“Ok.” Uruha wasn’t going to keep his hopes up. After all he had lost so much past few months and it wouldn’t be surprise if Aoi decided to disappear as well.
Stepping inside of his home he felt relieved. There wouldn’t be anyone who would judge him under his own roof. But sudden voice startled him.
“Where have you been?! I have been worrying!”
Turning his head away, not wanting Reita to see his teary face, he walked quickly to his room closing the door behind him.
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