Japan -- I've been interested in Japanese culture since seeing Big Bird in Japan as a child, I want to see the shrines and cherry blossom trees and Mt. Fuji and the Ghibli Museum, go shopping there. Obviously with what's going on now, though, my plans for that may be altered.

Peru -- Especially inspired by The Mysterious Cities of Gold. I want to ( Read more... )

I always have a list of goals going, so a list of New Years Resolutions wouldn't list anything new. However, here are some accomplishments from 2010, inspired by someone else on my friendslist ( Read more... )

Loving Someone with Bipolar Disorder made me start thinking about ways to improve my mental health. I never really considered how other symptoms like irritation or being quick to anger can be related to bipolar, even if you aren't currently in a serious mood episode. Also PTSD and OCD are very commonly comorbid with Bipolar and what I read ( Read more... )

I finally finished rereading Sailor Moon Super S. I should read a bit of Sailor Moon every night -- it always improves my mood. It makes me very happy and the world seems like a brighter and kinder place. I don't relate to any of the main characters too much (I relate most to Sailor Saturn), but I relate to qualities within each of them. All of ( Read more... )

In Authentic Happiness it mentioned the importance of having a meaning to your life. Sometimes in bipolar episodes I would dwell a lot on my life purpose and whether I could even justify continuing to live at the expense of other living things. Sometimes I thought that maybe there was a trick to being alive and we were all meant to kill ourselves ( Read more... )

I went to bed at 10:30pm last night and talked to Michael on the phone for a bit because I couldn't sleep. I finally took a Klonopin to fall asleep since I need to fix my sleep schedule. I had some pretty intense dreams. However, going to bed early did no good and I woke up after 12:30pm. I slept almost 14 hours! I don't know why. I haven't ( Read more... )

Michael is leaving tomorrow instead of Thursday because he needs to do things at home. I hate unexpected changes and being alone, so this is slightly difficult for me. Also my moods have been very erratic. I don't know if this is breakthrough bipolar symptoms or not. I'm not having any current interpersonal problems and I think even if Amber ( Read more... )

I woke up anxious. I do not know why. I took a Klonopin and a Buspar. The Buspar actually seems to be helping a bit, which is strange, because people often say it needs to build up in your body to help. I have better luck when I take it infrequently. I'm going to make a plan for today to try and keep myself busy ( Read more... )

Affirmations in Shadow Dance by David Richo (pg. 73-74 ( Read more... )

I'm feeling calmer about everything. I can't let small things upset me so much. I have to maintain a distance between myself and others so everyone's opinion doesn't drive me nuts/upset me. Here are my resolutions for the week ( Read more... )