I had a feeling this was going to happen. I'm glad our relationship is so honest, but sometimes that makes it scary ( Read more... )

Last night I had a dream about you. I never told you I liked you, but you knew. "3 minutes, Sarah. Let's just kiss for 3 minutes and then we'll know if I like you ( Read more... )

Today in Psychology, we're discussing depression. I know I should be paying attention, but there's just a lot of feelings I have going on that need to be released ( Read more... )

I feel like this should be called my lovejournal, not my livejournal haha ( Read more... )

I felt it when I woke up this morning. 7:30, cool air, soft cream-colored sheets with a quilt just thick enough to keep me from shivering. Kanoa was purring and kneading stomach/shoulder/face haha. But, the feeling was different than it has been for a long time. I don't even know how long.... many years, it feels like. When I went downstairs, the ( Read more... )

I always am surrounded by them. Do they not think that I know what they're doing? It just makes me angry. Especially when it's my Dad. Trying to pull a guilt trip on me for not being grateful and then resenting him for trying to help me? I mean, he is desperately trying to find ANYTHING to accuse me of to make me feel like I owe him some sort of ( Read more... )

Staying at my dad's house for the past two months has really been an eye opening experience in so many ways. It's like re-living my past from a different, more objective perspective. I can see all of the things I went through and immerse myself in my previous relationships all over again, but it's somehow different, in a good way ( Read more... )

Every time I read over my entries from when I was younger, my heart starts pounding really hard. Not fast, just hard. It's so weird. Especially entries that are just BEGGING for me to jump back into them and change something lol. Like the joining the Navy one. Or the I met this cool girl one. Just stupid things. But everything happens for a reason ( Read more... )

The magnitude of losing the only person I have ever loved, and most likely will ever love, has settled in my heart. I've always been upset about it. I've cried about it a few times, been angry a few times, vented a lot, yet only after spending the last 18 straight days with her have I REALLY really realized what this means ( Read more... )

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