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Meta-catharsis
I want catharsis by typing my words out. I want catharsis by having my words read. I want a response of some sort to those words. but I do not want controversy or awkwardness.
These days, I don't know where I'd be able to meet all of these conditions. I can probably type my words anywhere. That's easy enough. Getting a response is incredibly easy ( Read more... ) -
Not exactly a year down the line
Well.. the divorce still isn't finalized. I am better in so many ways and still depressed and shitty in so many ways. While I realize that pretty much all these posts are all depressing and emo in nature, I know that this is probably the one place I can do it without the majority of my friends and family noticing it. I'm too much of a man tied to ( Read more... ) -
14 days left
I wake up today and I realize in 7 days, Uma will turn 9. But that's wonderful. But in 7 more days after that my amazing nine-year-old Uma and my equally amazing two-year-old Laurel are going to live in a completely different house away from me forever. That isn't wonderful. It seems impossible to think of a life without my girls. Im going to do it ( Read more... ) -
I still exist
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My biannual post
Hello LJ-verse
How are all of you today? I'm fine. I really should try to stick to being on here everyday. Facebook is an evil machine that sucks away the ability to write a quality post because people go tl;dr if they look at any post with a "see more" link on it.
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Fucked up state post alert
I've had a horrible couple of days. My meds have made me dysfunctional. disfucktional would be the proper word.
My PTSD flared up and a trigger pushed me to a state that I haven't ever been in. Hyperanxious, paranoid, incredibly short-tempered.
I realize that this shit is happening and I"m so actively doing everything to minimize the circumstances. ( Read more... ) -
Empathy is a bitch
Dad (Steph's dad) is in the hospital in a serious way. He's been in the ICU for 3 days and hasn't woken up. The stress is building around the house. We're in Austin. I'm holding it in so that I can give all my attention to Steph and Karen. I feel as though I'm not doing enough. This empathy thing is often a bitch. I really haven't slept well the ( Read more... ) -
The Insomnia effect
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The genius of Ken Brannagh
Ken Brannagh is one of those talents that you can't appreciate when he is on screen. His directorial work speaks volumes more than his acting. But this isn't to say that his acting is anything subpar. In fact it is far from that. His acting skills in "Conspiracy" and "The Goebbels experiment" are spectacular. His roles in his adaptation of his ( Read more... ) -
One post over the line -- sweet fake-jesus, one post over the line
It's been seven months since the last post. It's Facebook not me. Well it's me using facebook that's stopping me from posting on livejournal. Let me see if I can keep up with this again.
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