Fucked up state post alert
I've had a horrible couple of days. My meds have made me dysfunctional. disfucktional would be the proper word.
My PTSD flared up and a trigger pushed me to a state that I haven't ever been in. Hyperanxious, paranoid, incredibly short-tempered.
I realize that this shit is happening and I"m so actively doing everything to minimize the circumstances. A constant hyper vigilance has made me so tired and unbearably able to function.