Tonight I found myself talking with an old friend. A friend who has never been the closest but was always there to show me that it wasn't the end of the world and that I wasn't the only one who was going through bad times. Well, it happened again tonight, by complete accident. The past couple of weeks have been spent trying to decide what I ( Read more... )

So I decided to sit down and update. I have so many thoughts and feelings cruising through my head and haven't written any of it down in a good while. Why do I hold things in that I want to say? Am I afraid of the consequences? Am I scared of what people might say or how they might react? I'm not a totally conventional person, I know that. I' ( Read more... )

Trying to figure things out sucks. The past month or so has been spent working and driving. I love to drive, but it makes me think. Being that I live with five other people, I don't get a lot of alone time. When I go for a cruise, it's just me alone with my thoughts and whatever music I feel like listening to at the time, which usually triggers ( Read more... )

what can I say but WOW. Tonight was what I've been needing for what seems like a long time now. I talked to Megan for over four hours on the phone. I think we can finally put everything that's happened behind us. I'm so determined to make it up to her though, somehow, sometime. I'm not toally sure yet how, but I have a few ideas. I'm not ( Read more... )

Think before you speak, Brant...think before you speak. Sometimes I guess I have no tact. Sometimes I say things and don't neccesarily realize the effect that my words may have on someone else. When I know that something is a touchy subject and hearts are still sore, I should just bite my tongue. I didn't know this would hurt her...I also didn' ( Read more... )

Well, as Megan said on GW today (a Texas music discussion board), "I'm glad we're on a new page. The old one was depressing." That is so true in so many ways. I don't know everything that has been going through her head. I know there was so much going through my head..Love, fear, sorrow, shame, maybe a hint of anger as well. These feelings were ( Read more... )