Have you ever experienced a night terror or sleep terror ( Read more... )

i need to be in the middle of nowhere again.
a magical place called nowhere.

how strange it is feels to be so content back home. the anxiety that once writhed in me here seems to have dissipated into another lifetime when i was a porous, breakable stone instead of smooth, more forgiving wood. its almost as if i'd like to stay here for awhile, postpone school another year and help my family, be the big sister, stay out of ( Read more... )

oh jesus,

what is it with people and formalities?

"i demand respect yet i don't act respectfully in any sense of the word!"

espeacially the ones who don't understand or deserve them?

why take yourself so seriously...
you don't even respect yourself or anyone else.

THERE IS AN URGENCY TO LIFE, WHY DOESN'T ANYOKNE SEEM TO UNDERSTAND THIS?

what a great feeling it to be where you're at and love it? could i possibly love missoula more? probably, because i've just start and there is so much more to look forward too. snow has already dusted the mountains and it is winter overnight. i smile alot, i meet nice people, i work hard and i play hard. the beauty of this place is unfamiliar yet ( Read more... )

oh, what have i done to deserve the kindness i've seen?

It must be a sin to live so soullessly.

someone will really love you someday.

can't wait for the cold on my face
breathing icy cool breaths
tingling the lungs
reminding me of nothing but the good and the moments that have mattered
protected by a shield of black eyelashes and a furrowed brow
relaxed and all knowing
knowing not a thing
a detective of my universe

forgiveness is not a strong virtue of mine.