"Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and ( Read more... )

And I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like I'm living the worst day

so. im not really sure why im writing in this, since no on reads it except ryan, but i hvae no one to talk to and i need to vent. today was a bad day in general because i had to go back to school. i hate school. i cannot believe i still have like 6 more months left. i ( Read more... )

Honey, help me out of this mess
I'm a stranger to myself
But don't reach for me -- I'm too far away
I don't wanna talk cause there's nothing left to say

idk why im writing in this thing again. i dont even know what to say anymore. Idk whats wrong with me lately. I feel so, empty. Im just trying to get by everyday. Im sick of the same thing day after ( Read more... )

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others only read of
Others only dream of the love
Oh, the love that I love
Love-ah-love-ah

See, I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words
More words than I had ever heard
And I feel so alive

The first two months of school were ( Read more... )

im having such a bad day and youre not making this any easier for me. ugh. i dont understand chemistry at all. converting things. how am i supposed to know how many deciliters are in a decaliter? i dont understand any of it. Mrs senna sucks at explinging things. i dont even know how to do any of this and i cant do it at work because i dont have a ( Read more... )

so its monday. I dont like mondays at all. My license came in the mail today. I hate the picture on it. I realized at lunch how out of shape im getting and i hate it. Im like twice the size of alex. I hate significant figures too. i got like a 26 out of 38 on a gay quiz in sennas class today on them. Anatomy made me feel better. i got a 100 on a ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt so out of place
that the smile on you face
was to keep from crying?

so hes gone...just like that. I didnt think itwould be this hard. But it already feels like i dont even have a boyfriend. I can never get a hold of him. and it sucks. Its weird talking to him on the phone. I hate hearing all of the other college kids having a good ( Read more... )

I'm not suposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am
I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands (how I feel)
I'm trying hard to breathe now but there's no air in my lungs
There's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb

I try to hold this Under control
They can't help me 'Cause no one ( Read more... )

Aren't we crazy for running all the time? Maybe...
Let's forget we're running out of time

Upcoming Events:

•Cross country double sessions starts in 2 weeks and im kinda excited. Not for the running part but its gonna be nice to see all of my friends everyday again.

•Work ends the sunday before Labor Day and im kinda depressed because now i wont ( Read more... )

So last night before i went to bed i thought back to a conversation last summer with my best friends. Things were so different back then..All i needed was a boyfriend back then. But with him leaving in less than a month, i really am starting to regret pushing my friends out of my life. Sure they could be loud and annoying sometimes, but they were ( Read more... )