one mroe week :/
I'm not suposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am
I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands (how I feel)
I'm trying hard to breathe now but there's no air in my lungs
There's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb
I try to hold this Under control
They can't help me 'Cause no one knows
so after today, i only have one more week left with him. It sucks so much. Idk i dont really think its hit me that bad yet because im not really that depressed yet. Idk. I know i will be when the time comes. Im not worried about us staying together because weve made it this far already and it will only make us stronger. Im just dreading next saturday.
Cross country is insane. Im so dead. Mondya we did the feehan run which is like 5.5 tuesday we have a SPEED workout...on the second day of practice. i was ready to kill someone. We ran to capron park from studly which is like a mile then did 6 sets of 1000's (which is 2 and a half laps around the track....as fast as u can go) in the field of capron. Lacasse told martin to make us only do five, so we only did five but i really wantd to kill myself. We were working on speed before we even worked on endurance. I like jogged everyone. Speed an okay pace and pushed ourselves a lot when we got onto mount hope to try to catch up with lauren and emily. We finally caught up to them and by this time we were like sprinting. I had so much mroe energy running today. Idk sometimes i just have days where i can just run. I didnt get any cramps or anything. It was nice. So we did 8 miles on an hour and 6 minutes. I was so happy with myself. monday were doing hill workouts...im pretty sure im gonna die. Maybe this season will be good. I really hope so.
Im not really dreading going back to school. Double sessions already started so its like the summers over already anyway. Idk i dont really mind going back to school anymore i guess. Ive been working almost everyday for the same amount of time id be in school anyway. Im kinda excited to see everone that i didnt get to see this summer like doog and jenny and everyone.
I have an interview with eric from the Y sometime next week about lifeguarding there during the school year.
were finalllllyyyy looking at cars too, i get my license in like...2 and a half weeks...hopefully.