Honestly people don't know how I truly feel anymore. Like I'm lost for emotions, lost for words. And what do they do? Expect me to be perfect? Expect me to be this perfectionist all the time? Like honestly. I'm so hurt, I get hurt and bothered by the most little things in the world. I don't know how it feels like to be truly happy anymore. ( Read more... )

 I HAVE THE LARGEST RANT EVER.

I can't take this anymore. I really can't. I'm not ready for all of it. i'm not ready to face everything, i'm not ready for the poundings that's coming my way. Seriously...It's so hard all of a sudden, it's so hard being me. Yeah yeah, "look at all the other people suffering more than you" I GET IT ... but still, my ( Read more... )

 I don't know if my heart can take it.
What will I do when I lose the next few close friends that i've been closed to all summer?
Nothing then...I don't know.. I don't know anymore. Life has it's struggles, and to be completely honest.. I wish my struggles were done and over with right now. I love family, boyfriend & friends? Is that even a possible ( Read more... )

 okay so I had a freaking blast at splash canyon ! since ana already posted like everything and I was a freaking turtle at doing so. Read hers ( : 
anyways , i'm just really dead tired and for real . My august , is gonna be my august ! 
mine and only ♥ cause I wasted my July watching kids, running around..thinking I can handle it , but I just cant. ( Read more... )

 it's so undefine now.
I can't even define what we are anymore, it's been so long and this distance that we have had has been tearing us apart.
I don't even know if I have a hold on you anymore. I miss those late night talks, while my candle light is on...and i'm reading a book but you're still on the phone just listening to me even if i'm not ( Read more... )

 What a joy, its like almost 7:00 am here. so realy I'm not feeling my best anymore...
I fell asleep cause I was so damn tired, and I missed 10 calls from him...and got 10 text msgs. My stupid phone had to go on silent mode. Sigh, the night you get back..I didn't even talk to you. Rough morning man, and bleh..it just doesn't feel like it's pulling ( Read more... )

I'm not gonna lie. 
I'm dying without you. it's beeen nearly two weeks without you.. =/ and it hurts . 
I'm not good with you far away from me, i'm not good with you not by my side...bleh ! 
two more nights & your back ! I cannot wait ♥

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BABY ! since I didnt mention it yesterday : (
& happy birthday anton today ! 
things are really ( Read more... )

my baby's birthday is tomorrow ! exactly 2 months older than you (: ! i'm so special that's why.
you're turning 16 tomorrow and you're not gonna be here to spend it with me :( , sigh ! sometimes I feel like we feel so far away from each other, like you moved or something ! . crap this is getting to me. I've read through all our letters this weekend ( Read more... )

 day 3 and i've survived but I feel like im dead without you.
not hearing your voice, the goodnights, the goodmornings... I just have to hear it through a recording that we made before you left :( ....
I wonder what you're doing right now, I wonder how your feeling in cali.. I wonder if your having so much fun without me. If only your mom told my mom ( Read more... )

 Today was a good day for real ! 
-slept in  !! and waited alll day for baby to call me from cali ! ): 
-ordered pizza from dominos cause i was lazy to cooook ! lmfao 
-went to christines place with bev 
-made videos and took pictures
-christine and bev in garbage bags and our hairs messed up, draw fake unibrows and moustaches with eyeliner on our faces
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