I'm so weak.
I HAVE THE LARGEST RANT EVER.
I can't take this anymore. I really can't. I'm not ready for all of it. i'm not ready to face everything, i'm not ready for the poundings that's coming my way. Seriously...It's so hard all of a sudden, it's so hard being me. Yeah yeah, "look at all the other people suffering more than you" I GET IT ... but still, my life has had so many ups and downs and failures throughout the many years that all I did was try to stand still but can't anymore.
1. I'VE BEEN TRYING TO CALL YOU.. INBOX YOU... LEAVE YOU VOICEMAIL MSGS... but you don't reply. what's wrong with you. I'm trying to be the bigger person here into fogiving you for what YOU did...and i'm the one who has no effort in return? wth is that. It's so hard to reach out to you, so hard to just completely get a hold of you...and so hard that you aren't even there anymore. We were bestfriends not long ago, and you threw it all away, you threw our friendship away...you made things like this. I was the one always running to you for help..and yet your just being that stupid girl that i never though you were up till now. Why do i have to call your boyfriend to ask where you are? I'm not like that.WHYYYYY ARE YOUUU....making me so paranoid when I didn't do anything wrong and you were the one that ruined everything. Not once did I try to hurt you, not once did I ever thought of having revenge, not once did I stop missing you..cause I do..i'm not gonna lie.
I could have forgave and forgotten what happened between us, but from what I've seen this past few days...
I'm done...
I really hope i'm done.. cause I HATE CHASING YOU . you were my sister, you were my bestfriend, you were the person who I cried to.
YOU WERE YOU WERE.
I DONT WANT SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL...
BOOOO.......
I can't take this anymore. I really can't. I'm not ready for all of it. i'm not ready to face everything, i'm not ready for the poundings that's coming my way. Seriously...It's so hard all of a sudden, it's so hard being me. Yeah yeah, "look at all the other people suffering more than you" I GET IT ... but still, my life has had so many ups and downs and failures throughout the many years that all I did was try to stand still but can't anymore.
1. I'VE BEEN TRYING TO CALL YOU.. INBOX YOU... LEAVE YOU VOICEMAIL MSGS... but you don't reply. what's wrong with you. I'm trying to be the bigger person here into fogiving you for what YOU did...and i'm the one who has no effort in return? wth is that. It's so hard to reach out to you, so hard to just completely get a hold of you...and so hard that you aren't even there anymore. We were bestfriends not long ago, and you threw it all away, you threw our friendship away...you made things like this. I was the one always running to you for help..and yet your just being that stupid girl that i never though you were up till now. Why do i have to call your boyfriend to ask where you are? I'm not like that.WHYYYYY ARE YOUUU....making me so paranoid when I didn't do anything wrong and you were the one that ruined everything. Not once did I try to hurt you, not once did I ever thought of having revenge, not once did I stop missing you..cause I do..i'm not gonna lie.
I could have forgave and forgotten what happened between us, but from what I've seen this past few days...
I'm done...
I really hope i'm done.. cause I HATE CHASING YOU . you were my sister, you were my bestfriend, you were the person who I cried to.
YOU WERE YOU WERE.
I DONT WANT SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL...
BOOOO.......