And We Walked In Fields Of Gold

[tigre86]

Last night I had a moment of clarity. A realization. An epiphany. A breakthrough. Whatever you want to call it. I was lying in bed, the white of my ceiling the only visible thing in the darkness, when my mind traveled back to another night over a decade ago. I was ten years old again, looking out the windowpane stained with running raindrops into

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[songsaremylove]

How you described your childhood was just beautiful. It was calming to me. I don't know why but it was I remember just being a kid and those warn summer days where I would go swimming, riding my 4wheeler and just be a kid without having to worry about things. Just being free. I'm glad you were able to remember the good things.

[tigre86]

Sense memory is the highest form of memory we have--just touching, seeing, or smelling something that you did when an event happened can bring it back. That's why it happens and that was the first time I let it come to me. Because really for me the good things are harder then the bad things because the good things usually get outlined in the bad.

[breakingsilence]

That sounds really nice and pleasent. :] I'm glad you got to remember good times in your child hood, it sounds lovely :]

[tigre86]

Me too, it has been so long since I've unlocked memories like that--it was overwhelming in the best way possible.

[tigre86]

It's the first time I've remembered anything that vividly from my childhood. I had vague memories, but most were blocked. So this felt really good.

I'm at that point in my life now, I enjoy talking to my online friends and expressing myself in this journal. But I do miss the simplicity of life I had growing up even if my homelife wasn't exactly great.

I think it was a maple tree if I remember correctly. :)

[tigre86]

Pain is a deeper emotion I think or at least it affects us in a different way so it's easier to cling to it. It's hard to reveal in the good. Maybe that's just part of our cynical nature as human beings.

I know, sigh.

[youve_got_wings]

Crying can be good once in a while *hugs*

[tigre86]

I think it's the first time I cried out of some sense of joy and relief instead of sorrow and pain, so yes it was really good. *hugs*

[cloudlesssmile1]

*hugs* I'm glad you found some good memories to look back on.

[tigre86]

Me too. *hugs*