Its been a long time since I was even remotely close to being happy. I find myself constantly doing things with others simply to be a distraction to the sadness that has become my life. When it comes right down to it, I'm not loved, and I don't feel as though I matter to people. I feel as though if I don't call, or talk to people they arne't going ( Read more... )

So, yesterday was a rough day. I talked with Mandy finally on Monday evening about soccer. She let me know that they were going a different direction with the soccer team other than me. I truly don't get it. She's bringing in some kid to be the assistant coach. I proved myself last year, and the three previous years somewhere else. I'm a real good ( Read more... )

This weekend was my first sketch at First Christian. Well, not really, but my first sketch furing the weekend services anyhow. It went really well. I've done the sketch before, but had forgotten that the audience really thinks its funny. I mean it is, but there is nothing like being on stage and having the audience laughing to the point that you ( Read more... )

So, the last 24 hours have really sucked. It all started out with me forgetting to go to the dress rehearsal for a sketch I'm in at church this weekend. It was on a different night than our usual practices, and I just forgot. I havn't felt that bad in a long time. Since it seems like nothing good has happened, and only bad. Nothing serious, just a ( Read more... )

Not for a long time, and not gushing with tears, but a short simple cry. I was watching SportsNite, which is just a coincidence. I believe I could have been watching fishing and it wouldn't have mattered ( Read more... )

another defeat in the ever lengthening search for a career and a job that is worth of paying back huge college loans. Green did not pass their school levy, so my full time substitute position has disappeared to the netherworld. On the bright side, I am still fully employed at Chic Fil A and I am able to earn raises fairly quickly. So, that's ( Read more... )

Not a whole lot is new. Last wekk at drama practice I mentioned that I had a skit that I thought they would all really like that would go along with what they were searching for. They asked me to bring it this week, so I did. We read through it a couple times, and they just adored this skit. Thought it was hillarious, which of course it is. So, we ( Read more... )

Today was one of those days... in a good way. I worked with a new guy today. He's really quiet, and mormon which I think is always interesting. He's very amiable, and I think I'll enjoy working with him through the summer. We got everything done way ahead of schedule and its his first day working in a year or so. I was impressed. Its like riding a ( Read more... )

I preached at my dads church today. Its the third time I've done that now. It seemed to go well. I do hate the awkwardness and formality of church. Why do we sit up, stand, pray, sing, and everything in a particular order and time. Why do peopel get upset if the speaker wants to sit with his friends or family in the pews, and then when its time to ( Read more... )

Well, my life continues on its quest for the peculiar ( Read more... )