Begining and ending with tears
So, yesterday was a rough day. I talked with Mandy finally on Monday evening about soccer. She let me know that they were going a different direction with the soccer team other than me. I truly don't get it. She's bringing in some kid to be the assistant coach. I proved myself last year, and the three previous years somewhere else. I'm a real good coach, why she isn't giving me this position is beyond me. I understnad why the JV position was taken from me. Jeff is the former coach, and an absolutely amazing guy who the girls just adore. So, that makes sense.
Anyhow, I asked her if I could come to practice and say goodbye. She said that would be fine. I didn't want to adress the entire team, just wanted to say hello to each player and talk with a couple of them. It was more for me than them. I knew it would be hard, but I didn't realize it would bring me to tears as I left. I mean, I was just balling all the way from Green to Beldon. Then at work I had to take ten minutes or so during the lunch rush to just cry in the hallway in back. I fell in love with that school, community, and team of girls last year. Its killing me to not be there anymore. We went to regionals for the first time in school history last year. What in the world else could I have dnoe?
Well, after that the day preceded a bit more like normal. I talked and joked with my friend Christopher at work. I went to drama practice before church, and ended up not leaving for church. We read through a bunch of scripts, and then just talked. I guess a couple of us were dealing with some things. So, Jamie just asked a bunch of questions trying to get us all to open up with each other. It was great. She asked me what our drama ministry can do to continue down the path of growth that we are experiencing right now. I told her that we were doing it right then. Keeping Christ the center of our ministry is all that He asks of us. Both the question and the answer were more complex than that. Anyhow, Art was being Art, and I had an idea for a sketch where someone is simply saying, here is Art being loud and crazy. Art started being loud and crazy, and we were all laughing, then I said, and here is Jen being dramatic, because Jen is a little bit dramatic. More animated now that I think about it, but retrospect is 20/20. Everyone just died laughing, and then Jen started balling. Apparently people really made fun of her a lot when she was a kid about being melodramatic and she has done a lot to try and over come that in her life. It broke my heart. I tried to explain to her, as did others that God needs animated, and excited people just as much as other types of people, and in fact that my favortie kidns of people are the animated and interesting ones. They tend to be the people that I'm drawn towards. I didn't say it becuase I didn't want anything to be iuncomfortable, but I almost never want to date a girl unless shes relatively dramatic. I honestly meant what I said in a good way, and thats not how she took it. She assured me that she wasn't mad at me, and that it was ok, but I dont' think that was entirely true.
Then I came home and watched baseball, and pet Taylor. I like house siting and dog sitting. its fun. I especially just like being able to come home without anyone else around sometimes. Its nice. On the other hand I hate being alone all the time at home.
Anyhow, I asked her if I could come to practice and say goodbye. She said that would be fine. I didn't want to adress the entire team, just wanted to say hello to each player and talk with a couple of them. It was more for me than them. I knew it would be hard, but I didn't realize it would bring me to tears as I left. I mean, I was just balling all the way from Green to Beldon. Then at work I had to take ten minutes or so during the lunch rush to just cry in the hallway in back. I fell in love with that school, community, and team of girls last year. Its killing me to not be there anymore. We went to regionals for the first time in school history last year. What in the world else could I have dnoe?
Well, after that the day preceded a bit more like normal. I talked and joked with my friend Christopher at work. I went to drama practice before church, and ended up not leaving for church. We read through a bunch of scripts, and then just talked. I guess a couple of us were dealing with some things. So, Jamie just asked a bunch of questions trying to get us all to open up with each other. It was great. She asked me what our drama ministry can do to continue down the path of growth that we are experiencing right now. I told her that we were doing it right then. Keeping Christ the center of our ministry is all that He asks of us. Both the question and the answer were more complex than that. Anyhow, Art was being Art, and I had an idea for a sketch where someone is simply saying, here is Art being loud and crazy. Art started being loud and crazy, and we were all laughing, then I said, and here is Jen being dramatic, because Jen is a little bit dramatic. More animated now that I think about it, but retrospect is 20/20. Everyone just died laughing, and then Jen started balling. Apparently people really made fun of her a lot when she was a kid about being melodramatic and she has done a lot to try and over come that in her life. It broke my heart. I tried to explain to her, as did others that God needs animated, and excited people just as much as other types of people, and in fact that my favortie kidns of people are the animated and interesting ones. They tend to be the people that I'm drawn towards. I didn't say it becuase I didn't want anything to be iuncomfortable, but I almost never want to date a girl unless shes relatively dramatic. I honestly meant what I said in a good way, and thats not how she took it. She assured me that she wasn't mad at me, and that it was ok, but I dont' think that was entirely true.
Then I came home and watched baseball, and pet Taylor. I like house siting and dog sitting. its fun. I especially just like being able to come home without anyone else around sometimes. Its nice. On the other hand I hate being alone all the time at home.