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worse
rob was so mean to me all day today and idk why but I'm not talking to him anymore. he was weird all day and kept making fun of me. I texted him and he didn't answer. he's the only link I had to the dude so I guess now I really do have to let it go completely and try and get over it. idk how to though, because im still friends with most of the ( Read more... ) -
mad
it makes me mad that rob was all like, oh yeah he called me this morning. that's great why do I fucking need to know? he called to talk about sports. he ain't called me so why I need to know about it? why I need to be upset knowing he is talking to you and not me? I don't. man this whole thing just sucks. I still don't get it. and my good mood is ( Read more... ) -
scary
I woke up this morning and actually thought, I wish I knew why I woke up today. and as much as I don't like that, I don't really know how else to feel these days. I feel like I'm in the ocean being pushed down. I can't swim. I can't breathe. and I don't have things to look forward to, things to make me happy. I just look and see blackness and fear ( Read more... ) -
silence seems pretty common
so I sign into my livejournal two and a half years after my last post and it's funny because I've logged in for the same exact reason I logged in last time. because a boy is ignoring me and I need an outlet. this time at least that's not the only thing that's got me down. but it just doesn't make any sense. there was an incident, he ignored me for ( Read more... ) -
silence
btw, the silence right now is killing me. i wish i knew if he was at home or on campus, would make things a little easier. all i ever do is assume these days, at least now ill just hop on here and say everything instead of saying it to him. everything was like super awesome for a little over a month and i could never have even imagined how things ( Read more... ) -
so souped
i am so excited for this app, i need it, esp with things being shitty right now and so ill be able to use it to vent stuff and prob save me a lot of fights. just needa write shit out instead of tryina make it into an argument. idk but we'll see how this goes.
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job interview?
I was supposed to have this job interview this week in NYC. The lady was supposed to call me and give me a day and a time to come in but she hasn't called and I've called her and she hasn't been answering. I'm hoping she is out of the office or something because otherwise I'll be pretty upset. I have talked to the guy quite a bit recently about ( Read more... ) -
upset
I have been crying for a little while. One of the kids from the floor is having this party on Saturday and I figured I'd be invited but when John checked with him to make sure I found out I was wrong and I wasn't invited because that guy will be there and Charlie thinks there could be problems so he doesn't want me to be there. Me and that guy ( Read more... ) -
still not speaking
When I woke up this morning my hair felt really weird, ew, but then I brushed it and it feels really thick and stuff. Weird, idk. But anyway. He is still not speaking to me. I am working on his birthday and it's whatever. It's been almost 4 full days and it's getting to be just stupid. This time in my life when I'm most depressed from my surgery ( Read more... ) -
everything's always about him
Well, of course my entry is an update to my entry from last night. So I was right in my thinking that he didn't charge his phone from partying Sunday night. But, not before I texted him saying I guess I was right. But I only did that because Ken told me he had his phone during the day, but Ken really didn't know he just assumed. Which isn't his ( Read more... )