i hope she makes you happy... i know i could, but i just want you to be happy, and if this is what it takes, then i'll stand by and let you do what you think you need to do... i just dont want to see you get hurt...

how did i let everything get this far? how did everything get so out of control. i thought i was doing better ( Read more... )

so i didnt sleep at all again last nite, and around 8 this morning i got up and went for a walk. i walked around stanley park for over 2 hours this morning and i did a lot of thinking, and came to a lot of realizations... and the major one being fuck it. im done being the only one putting any effort into my friendships. im done being the only one ( Read more... )

definitely 8:16 and im definitely still up... last nite was fun though... going to the houses with mary, matt, c-bell, and nolan... gotta love scared boys! hehe definitly was a better end to a heinous day... i scared myself yesterday and i hope i never stoop to that point again... i cant keep doing this... somethings gotta change or im gonna break

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I know your life is empty ( Read more... )

i am officially in the most heinous mood ever.i hate that im letting everyone make me feel like this. i shouldnt... i should stand my ground and make myself feel better, but i dont... everyone around me is making me feel like shit in one way or another. making me feel not good enough... i feel like a friend of convenience to so many people, and ( Read more... )

i dont even know what to say anymore. i guess im just glad we're still friends, and i dont want to do anything to screw that up. but its hard... its hard to care so much and have you have no clue. youre so self-destructive... but then again so am i... but this is something that would help us both. i cant understand why you surround yourself with so ( Read more... )

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