some necessary venting

Feb 28, 2006 23:38

Now I definitely don't write in here very much anymore; however tonight I felt the urge to get my thoughts out there. Maybe once I get it down in writing, I'll feel better about it all ( Read more... )

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skastel March 1 2006, 17:39:12 UTC
The ever growing quater-life crisis strikes again! I think that moving is going to delay progress. While change/risk are the starting points to sucess, you also have to decide what it is you want to be doing that will make you happy. Friends make us all happy, and it's a great thing to have there, but personally I feel that if I'm not working on something that is meaningful to me then I'm wasting my time ( ... )

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thisjadedbliss March 2 2006, 04:15:24 UTC
The fact of the matter is, I don't really know what it is that I need to do to be happy. I know that I'm not unhappy with my life as a whole, I think I just feel like there is more potential for me out there. Since the end of my senior year I've been feeling the itch to get out. And so I saw the world - well...western Europe anyway and it was invigorating and it was refreshing and it was something I feel like I can't even describe in words ( ... )

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thepiratejoke March 1 2006, 21:22:32 UTC
i totally understand what you're saying.

i don't think there's anything wrong with wanting some change now. the whole POINT of this time in our lives is to figure shit out, experience all we can, and get as much as we can out of it. this is the ONLY time in our lives when we can just think about ourselves: no children, no spouses, etc.

the way i see it is that you already know what you have now is good; but that's no reason to NOT go out and try new things.

i've been thinking a lot of the same things recently.

i swear to god, though, this is probably one of the scariest times of my life that i've experience thus far.

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thisjadedbliss March 2 2006, 04:21:30 UTC
it's absolutely terrifying and it's comforting to know that there are sooo many people my age that are on the same page as me.

i really think change is something that i would benefit from. i think that i still associate Boston with college and that part of my life is over now. therefore it makes me sad to be here without those people i spent four years here with. i've grown and changed and this city just isn't the right fit anymore.

while i adore and appreciate the new friends i've made here, i think it's the city itself and what it represents that makes me want to move on to the new chapter of my life.

and like i said...it's terrifying

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i_got_stung March 1 2006, 21:25:13 UTC
Angela ( ... )

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thisjadedbliss March 2 2006, 04:27:56 UTC
Thanks Jess,

You know, you're so right. I remember talking to you and Kyley about my post grad adjustments and I think change is what I need right now. It sounds way easier to just get out, but it's so absolutely terrifying. I think I need to stop making excuses for myself.

New York has always been an option but the biggest question that constantly runs through my mind is: Can I afford it? It's such a huge expense and there's cut-throat competition for the good jobs. Lots of pressure. On the other hand, the city is SO diverse and there are so many opportunities to succeed. It just takes luck, dedication and hard work to find them.

I appreciate your wisdom and support. Thanks girl. <3

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alwaysthestar March 1 2006, 21:55:43 UTC
I'm moving to new york in either the summer or the fall. I am scared as hell, will i be making enough money, will i go back to school? will i fall on my face? will i find a job? I need to stop worrying so much and just take the leap. you can do it too babe, you are stronger than you give yourself credit. if johnny nobody from oklahoma can move to NYC and make it, a girl w/ a gangsta sister who lives in boston sure as hell can!!
9 days til you birthday, i say you come to atlantic city...i'll show you the fun boardwalk and we can lose all our money!! <3 mare

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thisjadedbliss March 2 2006, 04:30:53 UTC
Haha, thanks Mare. I am the biggest overanalyst that ever existed!! I over-think way too much. And making a decision? Forget it. Probably one of the most difficult things for me to do.

However, I know at some point I do need to take the leap.

Ohhh Atlantic City. I could go for a Fat Man grinder from the Grease trucks or a steak and cheese sub that's for sure. Mmmmm.

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ex_riotact106 March 2 2006, 01:58:00 UTC
a new perspective never hurt anyone, i moved for similar reasons and i definetly don't regret it! wish you luck deciding where you want to go next. if you ever end up in nyc, you could definetly come hang out one day with my friends and i, see whats the haps in town. i'm moving to a new apt there this summer and we're always up for new people to come along for overpriced movies, catching bands, and the odd union square pillowfight. take care!

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thisjadedbliss March 2 2006, 04:32:30 UTC
wow that is definitely bizarre. did you participate? haha.

thanks for your support. new york is actually at the top of my list in places to move to. how do you ever afford it? did you just move out there jobless and penniless? do you barely scrape by on what you do make?

give me some advice.

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ex_riotact106 March 2 2006, 15:00:03 UTC
had pillow, woulda traveled. i got caught at work and was late! by the time i got there everyone was wondering who was the crazy guy swinging a pillow at nobody as he came running out of the subway ( ... )

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