i dont look down upon myself in any ways. i get angry, sad, happy.  i have emotions. thats just the way i am.  i also sadly have jealousy. im slowly learning about lots of things about myself. some things i wish would come out a little faster than others. in the past i have had girls i have liked [obviously] and some who were ehh, not the best. i ( Read more... )

shopping is out of the way. everyone is done. i bought myslef a christmas present. i got my favorite christmas persent three months ago. her names meranda. i love you hun<3  

thursday i have no work. just have to pick up the cash at work. i will go pay off the cellular bill/ car payment
and then idk. i work on friday in the afternoon and then im done for the week cause me and steve have to go play in holland at lemonjellos. if you have nothing to do, come on out and have a good ol time. ender and ringer t are joining us ( Read more... )

she tells me over and over again that she loves me so much and i love it.
she always reminds me especially when i say over and over again
"i dont understand why you are with me"
i know why she is she has told me but she is just incredibly amazing
and she makes me feel amazing.
no one has ever done that.
very in love i am with you.
thats it babe.
<3 

it dosnt get better than this....

so i drove to his house.
which was amazing bc i missed/miss him sooooooo much.

i cant wait untill ican spend every second with you.
im truley in love with you babe.

ill call you tomorrow =] i love you

most amazing gf ever<3

i got to see the person i love most in the entire world today. i was typing to her and then she was behind me and the best hug in the entire world was givin to me. she is amazing. i love you meranada. i hope everything is good babe. love you tons<3

i find the one thing in my entire life that i have ever loved disreguarding family cause thats given, and now she wants to leave.
my body dosnt want to make an effort at any sort of gesture or motion.
i dont feel well but im not sick.
my feelings dont feel right now. im very cold and i am teary.
i feel heavy. i feel sad. i feel choiceless.
my lips are ( Read more... )

i woke up at about six o'clock today by a phone call from troy. our friend mark was getting married today. we were going to the reception. i had the most massive headache known to me ever.
it was not pleasant. we got there and it kinda went away. it was good seeing everyone.
those friends are the best friends i have fo sure. everyone just makes you ( Read more... )

 in it at first to shut myself down. looking for love was like asking to fail. the best comes unexpected said the rest. with no such intention to listen i set my sights and kept on looking. skiping past the people who didnt catch my attention. so i take the advice and pay none atlast. with my head on the stage tuning up and checking sound. i squint ( Read more... )

i dont wana even think about what i would do if something bad happened to her. i love her and i miss her so so so much right now. i hope everything is ok. i love her so much. she is everything to me and i never stop thinking about her.