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i find the one thing in my entire life that i have ever loved disreguarding family cause thats given, and now she wants to leave.
my body dosnt want to make an effort at any sort of gesture or motion.
i dont feel well but im not sick.
my feelings dont feel right now. im very cold and i am teary.
i feel heavy. i feel sad. i feel choiceless.
my lips are so dry and my eyes are wide.
my stomache feels empty and i wanna cry.
i
feel
like
im
losing
it.
i dont feel good.
just stick a knife in me.
the news is very far away from becoming but it feels way too close for comfort.
i dont wanna move.
i have the sniffles but there turning into the kind that are close company to tears.
i feel obligated to be in this position as i always am.
usually just being rejected or let down.
this hurts in a far worse way.
when its someone who loves you as much as they say they do but are still wanting to "get away".
people wanna "get away" but they take it the wrong way.
i have no say. i want no say. i gotta go.