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Joy Sucking
The past two weeks have not been good, this week has been worse for my schedule. I've been working on my Halloween costume and I have been skipping gym days to get it done. My work schedule is also nuts so I just feel all over the place. I took the advice I was given and found a therapist and saw her for the first time yesterday. I hope it works ( Read more... ) -
Can this please be rock bottom?
So I started this blog as a tracking of my weight loss journey, and it has turned into an emotional outlet. That is probably not the best thing to post on the internet, it makes me look unstable and weak, but at least it makes me feel like someone listening ( Read more... ) -
Depression is a bitch, part 2
I received some very good advice yesterday about depression. It's advice that I am going to hold onto and try to remember any time that I am feeling down. Letting go of things, and moving on is a struggle and each step is like moving through quick sand. But if life wasn't a struggle then it wouldn't be worth living. Good things will come of this ( Read more... ) -
Depression is a bitch
I have never been afraid to admit that I suffer from depression. Quiet the contrary I know that talking about it can often times lead to moments of clarity which will inevitably lead to healing and mental wellness. But sometimes I find talking to be hard and sometimes downright pointless. I know so many people who suffer from problems, depression, ( Read more... ) -
240.2
For the rest of my life the number 240.2 will haunt me. I hate that number, I hate it! It is like a stalker that won't take a hint, that won't obey a restraining order or move on to another obsession ( Read more... ) -
Back on the horse
The heat is such a killer! Last week I couldn't find the strength to care about working out or cooking. I only put on 1lb (YAY) but I need to get back in the swing of things. I've got my meals semi-planned out for the week and I plan on getting back to the gym tomorrow. It's still very hot out so sleep is almost impossible, but I'm going to try and ( Read more... ) -
Recovering..slowly
So last week was rough. I'm by no stretch of the imagination feeling like myself again, but the anger is starting to ebb and the pain is going numb. I over did it with the eating today I just didn't care. I wanted to feel full and now all I do is feel sick and guilty ( Read more... ) -
Sad, Angry and Disheartened
In the past week and a half I've never felt so disheartened about weight loss. On Monday of last week my Mom drove through town on her way back to Arizona. I made us dinner (brussle sprouts, rice and chicken) while we were eating I lamented about feeling like no one wanted to be around me. My Mom, bless her heart, said "Well if you were skinny I ( Read more... ) -
Monday!
Who needs numbers any how! So the weekend was not the best for eating. A tea party on Saturday was followed with napping and a night out dancing. I wish I could feel good about the exercise that dancing would give me, but I had two pretty heavy drinks and I know those are packed with sugar (not to mention they weren't even that great ( Read more... ) -
Day 2
Okay so yesterday was great until I got home and found chocolate at home. I did hit the gym so that helped absorb the impact of my 425cal binge and I had an amazingly healthy dinner (Rice with shiitake mushrooms & seaweed, black cod an Brussels sprouts). I'm going to revel in the healthy behaviors I did accomplish and take steps to remove the ( Read more... )