I'm totally going insane.  Someone who I considered my best friend just a week ago now hates my guts.  Part of me feels so fucked up for what I did, and I can see how other people who see this situation from the outside might agree with that.  Part of me feels so RELIEVED.  This was HER affair, HER deceit, yet I was so wrapped up in it that it felt ( Read more... )

I am a complete pessimist when it comes to love now.

When Angie and I were together, I tried to think about the future as little as possible.  You never know what's gonna happen so why worry about it?!  She lives in Miami, I live here.  How would we ever be toghether?  I didn't worry about it.  You never know what's gonna happen, ANYthing could ( Read more... )

Someone explain to me what love is please.

I thought I knew what it was. Or how to do it. But I was wrong.
I need help.

Well....that's that. She broke up with me. She needs a *break* so that she can *figure things out* in her life. And I wasn't being anything but a hindrance to that. Apparently. Supposedly. According to her ( Read more... )

Today was a pretty shitty day. Just totally emotionally exhausting. I just wanted to curl up in bed and die.

She came to see me for five minutes.

Today was perfect.

I so got a job at Best Buy. I'm so excited. I neeeeeeeeeded this job ( Read more... )

Cupcake. I love you for redoing my journal.
There. :)

Leave your name and ( Read more... )

I got a cell phone!!
8860094
...I think. Heh.
Call it! Now!
....no seriusly. Call me I want to feel popular. And I miss not talking to everyone.

I need to update this thing...but there's too much to say and not enough time. I was reading my old deadjournal. I haven't updated that thing in over a year. Reading it made me so sad...I'm not exactly sure why ( Read more... )