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fear.
anger.
happiness.

they don't mix.
they don't mix at all.

my emotions are messed up.
the anger out powers them all.
the fear makes me scared of what is infront of me.
the happiness makes me love.

i like the happiness the best.
i just need help to get it.
i need people.
i have the people.

otherwise, the fear comes back.

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i am stressed.
but i don't know why.

i was supposed to see jackass 2 tonight.
but, that didn't happen.
so, i saw school for scoundrels instead.

i also got my haircut today.
it is practically the same, except a lot thinner.

i saw nick webb tonight, and i also saw andy matthews.
it was weird.

turned around?
i dunno.

i have 650 dollars, to my name.
that money is about to be gone.
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bob, john, and harrison

so, i really want to talk about the 3 of them.
bob first-
i'm sorry i haven't been a really good friend. i'm sorry i have been an ass. we both know we have talked our shit about each other. and i apologize for that. i miss being your friend. i miss spending the whole spring break over at your house, when nothing mattered. we ( Read more... )

why can't i sleep?

i don't want to be awake.
i really need to brush my teeth.
but i am too lazy to get up.
i also need to find a job.
but who the fuck cares?

everyone is asleep.

i really need to think.
this weekend... this weekend.
by myself, all alone.
perfect time.

what have i done?
i don't really know, this is the most important question i ask myself right ( Read more... )

ugh, i am freaking out.
everything is falling apart.
or atleast i think it is.
but who knows, it could all be in my head.

but then again, what if everything is falling apart?
and i am too scared to notice it, because i want to think everything is perfect.
i could just want things to be perfect in my eyes, so i push the bad things out.

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Pride caused the fall.
Like the ashes you came from,
you'll burn the sky, and when you're gone, no one will cry.
Drown the towns with apathy, set our hearts in water.
Kill the scene with treachery, quenching all, all of our fires.
When you're gone no one will miss you
and when you're dead no one will cry.
Kiss your life goodbye.
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ugh, i am a horrible person.

i do stupid shit.
i made bad mistakes.
and then i can't take them back.

i don't know what i can say to take it back.
but i really wish i could.

i lost it all.
it will never come back, i think.
that is how it seems right now.

i'm stupid, i wish i was smart.
i wish i made good decisions.

izabelle's brother drove me home, he is nicer ( Read more... )