I used to hate when I felt like this. It scared me. Now I live for it and I'm afraid of it leaving. Did I just eat too much sugar today? (In general, probably.) Was it sparked by a silly no-name movie? Yes ( Read more... )

Sometimes, actually all the time, I think it's a shame that I don't have more friends. I'm pretty funny and this gift should be shared with more than 2 or 3 people. Oh well. Their loss, I think.

This is definately new territory. I used to have people, and I still have people but....different kinds. No e-mails. No calls. No texts. No comments. No messages. It's very strange. I miss having people to tell my stories to. Even though I know they are stupid stories ( Read more... )

I have a plan. I've had this plan before, but I let myself feel tied down here because of people, but now I realise that if they matter they'll stay with me. I'm excited and motivated and confidant. It's kind of a waiting game now to finish the next year, but I promise not to make this year as useless as I've let the past be. This is going to be

All you have to do is freakin apologize to me. You know what you did. You know it was wrong otherwise you wouldn't have felt the need to lie to me before you did it. You know it hurt me and you know all of the other things you have ever done to me. I am done feeling guilty for the things I have done that may have hurt you. I am not going to feel ( Read more... )

i feel like i'm drowning all of the sudden. i haven't used lj in like a year. i keep getting annoyed by people i care about. and i feel helpless a lot of the time. i worry about my mom and dad every second of the day. i'm terrified that i'm going to get fired and i have no idea why. i'm lonely. i think it's because i was so close. i got back my ( Read more... )

i miss kissing.

You have your own life I know, but show up you should
I’m disappointed, my vision blurs alone on the curb
Eight weeks since and it’s still the same
“Something just came up, I’m so sorry”

And maybe I’ve got needs that you can’t cure
But I’m waiting by the phone until I’m sure

Love like statistics, I’ve got a head full of hell alone in my thoughts
Kill the ( Read more... )

I don't even want to go tonight. Screw the ticket I already bought, it's gonna take gas to get there and involve leaving the house. I'm not interested.

Don’t I have a choice as the whether or not I’m crazy? Or better yet, can’t I choose to either be crazy or be sane; either or, not both? And along those lines, shouldn’t I know which is which? Which me made this choice, crazy me or sane me? If I can’t tell, isn’t that an issue? These are things that I think are important enough that I should have a ( Read more... )