As always you know exactly what to do and say to brighten my day.
Along with your lovely thought came a letter from Wilma.
Needless to say the tears are never ending. Thank you. Thank you both.
You mean so very much to me dearest, you always have and always will. I hope that you are keeping your one and most important promise. 
Midnight Friday to ( Read more... )

As always I am doing what I do best, think too much, to the extent of nothing being the same after leaving the trail of thought that brought it all on. Doesn't seem to make sense to most people I guess but that's how it is.
It's not fair on anyone to do what I am doing, but I cant not do ti as that would be even more unfair. I need to have patience ( Read more... )

So after spending several hours at the EBS, I had the best of times with Jamie and Toby, a 8 and 4 year old. We played with the interactive board game. They were so sweet. I miss being around children actually. I have never gone this long ever without children around me in my life... It is quite an astonishing thing to realise.
I am doing this for ( Read more... )

There are so many things I should and should not be doing. Things that I have to change in order to be closer to the me I want to be. And then there are the things I can't do anything about. And things I just have to surrender to and have some faith.
I am doing this change, as of now, this very instant, and I am sticking with it. It will start by me ( Read more... )

What am I supposed to do now then? I did not see this coming, or did I? This is all so very confusing. I thought it was all set. Signed, sealed, delivered ind of thing, but I was wrong, again. This can also be me messing myself up even worse just for the sake of not facing what it is front of me. Again. I have a tendancy to do these things on a ( Read more... )

Yesterday was just lovely. It was cold and all and I was silly enough not to be properly dressed, but that was easily fixed once I got to Maddy's. It was her birthday! Max was the chef and master of the barbeque, with a little help from Dimo. Lottie was as lovely as ever. Emma got so excited about the beer pingpong. Anna and I were both dressed ( Read more... )

I am going to write something horribly honest and hurtful now and I have decided not to care about who reads it, which is a very easy thing to do since the only one who I actually know that'll read this knows me well enough to see that this is something I need to do. And hopefully he will know that there is no need to worry.
My family is driving me ( Read more... )

I knew that he would grow up one day and maybe even start talking, possibly even to me. And now he has. For a while even. It is so wonderful and awful all at the same time. He's my little one. It really does mean the world to me. He does.
In 1½ weeks I will be home. I need to go home right now. It's getting ridiculous this... I have even started ( Read more... )

I just had to post now. So what if Holloways were playing next door?? I got Rory and Dave! Irish sweets are the best.
He played "Blower's Daughter", for me and Anscha, just because we asked him to. And I recorded it.
I am now complete. I have something to bring me back.
Thank you. Merci beaucoup mon ami, tu es adorable. Say the word and I'll be like a ( Read more... )

Babyshambles. Babyshambles. Babyshambles.
They rocked my socks. My feet were soaked in beer, half of my top as well. It was boiling hot. Crowded. I lost everyone but Anna, who stood a bit further back since she's not a shamble, or at least she wasn't until the concert. She was worse than me when they played Fuck Forever. I got Music When The Lights ( Read more... )