Ackarns rackarns
As always I am doing what I do best, think too much, to the extent of nothing being the same after leaving the trail of thought that brought it all on. Doesn't seem to make sense to most people I guess but that's how it is.
It's not fair on anyone to do what I am doing, but I cant not do ti as that would be even more unfair. I need to have patience. I also need a little insight into myself and some other people... Especially other people. Because if I knew what I want to find out I would know what I need to know because of the way it would make me feel. Wow, that's one long complicated way of thinking. And evidence of my previous statement of everything being different from when I started to write... Which will always be true as nothing is the same twice. I've lost myself now. I think not going home for Easter may have been a little bit of a bad idea. Or no, because then I would only have pushed this decision-to-be-made into the future and causing me more head ache further along. No one will understand any of this... Argh. I think I need Lonny. Or Kson. Or proof.
Time to have a banana.
It's not fair on anyone to do what I am doing, but I cant not do ti as that would be even more unfair. I need to have patience. I also need a little insight into myself and some other people... Especially other people. Because if I knew what I want to find out I would know what I need to know because of the way it would make me feel. Wow, that's one long complicated way of thinking. And evidence of my previous statement of everything being different from when I started to write... Which will always be true as nothing is the same twice. I've lost myself now. I think not going home for Easter may have been a little bit of a bad idea. Or no, because then I would only have pushed this decision-to-be-made into the future and causing me more head ache further along. No one will understand any of this... Argh. I think I need Lonny. Or Kson. Or proof.
Time to have a banana.