The boy I like told me I was beautiful tonight. I think I've had a smile on my face for the past five hours.

This is SO stupid and not anyones business but I HAVE to rant. I'm going crazy and have never been so fucked over in my life. Alex and I dated for about six months. I cheated on him once in the beginning..and we broke up. Two weeks later we were basically back together..but not exclusive. I didn't want to fuck things up again(like I always do) so I ( Read more... )

My world as I know it is over..

& my bad karma has been absolutely insane lately.
Start fresh?
I find myself saying that at least once every few months.
I'm sick of this roller coaster ride with friends, and boyfriends, and jobs and living arrangements.

I wants things to stay the same for once, and stay good.

For Christmas Alex took me to the Roosevelt Hotel for dinner. It came out to $250, but was the best meal I've ever had. He also bought me a new record player and made me 20 cd's. I feel so spoiled and I love it. He's such a honey. I know I should be his girlfriend again but I just like being single a lot better. Labels only complicate relationships ( Read more... )

I'm at work and I'm bored.
I feel okay today. The last two weeks have been a complete nightmare. All of which was brought on myself, but I still can't help feeling bad. Rejection is a bitch. So is karma. It's times like these where I am grateful to have an amazing roomie with a stuffed crust pizza waiting at the apartment. I'm such a fat kid :)

It always takes me losing someone to realize how much I fucking care about them..

I spent my last 3 relationships acting like I didn't give a fuck and it always worked to my benefit. Now I'm older & want a meaningful relationship. So why is it that as soon as I try and express how I really feel & and actually act like I really wanna be with someone it completely backfires? Why do guys want to be with a girl who doesn't want them ( Read more... )

Los Angeles to.....Nashville??

I don't know, maybe I could move there. After all it is the music city & starting over is always nice.

( I spend way too much time at tiny's )

So I'm finally all set in my new apartment. I live in walking distance from melrose shopping, which i'm pretty stoked about. I've been partying way too much, bars & clubs every night. I got a few new tattoos, for free of coarse :) I need to start doing something productive, a friend might be hooking me up with a job for suicide girls...no not ( Read more... )