Right now I don't give a fuck about spelling and grammer
This is SO stupid and not anyones business but I HAVE to rant. I'm going crazy and have never been so fucked over in my life. Alex and I dated for about six months. I cheated on him once in the beginning..and we broke up. Two weeks later we were basically back together..but not exclusive. I didn't want to fuck things up again(like I always do) so I figured it was the smarter thing to do. So for these past few months we've basically spent almost every day together and I had never been happier with someone. Everything was absolutly perfect..or at least I thought it was. I guess he was going out and meeting other girls...I don't understand how he even had time to do that considering how much time we spent together. So he calls to tell me he can't see me anymore because he at that point where he needs to be in an exclusive relationship and I kept telling him I couldn't do that...biggest mistake i've ever made. I regret it everyday. I just wanted to protect myself from getting hurt. I figured if he fucked up or if I did it would suck but it wouldn't hurt as bad and this way we wouldn't have to break up. I wouldn't agree to be his girlfriends because I didn't want this to end, ever. I guess that was really stupid...and I'm paying for it..Anyway I got drunk last night and called him. Number one mistake. Never fucking drunk dial your ex boyfriends...He tells me to come over..and I spend the night there. We tell eachother how much we love and miss eachother...I'm thinking everything is peachy. I wake up this morning and he tells me he's in a fucking relationship with someone else ALREADY. We split 5 days ago!!! SO basically he cheated on his girlfriend with me. Now i'm sure he probably cheated on me the whole time we were together...when we were exclusive...People told me but I didnt want to believe them. Im so so so hurt. I feel so stupid. I love that asshole with everything inside of me..I thought we were serious...I mean we even had the "moving in together/having kids talk" Anyone who knows me is probably thinking what the fuck...because that's so not me. I guess I just fell in love hard...and got fucked over 5 times harder.