she loves me, (yay x 10000000000000000000000000) :D

soo..... the depressed cycle still happens.... it's just different. i'm not as depressed, i'm just angry and apethetic, it's rather strange. like, when i get that way, i like to be angry, and i mean... like i want to go beat myself up, or get in a fight i know i will lose.... i don't know. it's strange. the last couple of days was my frist cycle ( Read more... )

so... at Ariel's party... i finally actaully had sex.

it was nice :D
very very very nice!!

i just don't want to become addicted and start acting weird :|

I feel like crying ( Read more... )

so. i think that it Brittany and i ever get together, and Mandi sees us, she will seriously like die. i'm so seriousl i will cuss, on LJ yes. i'm fuckig serious. i can never let her see us together, if we even get togehter, i don't even know if she likes me. hmm, who knows, i'll keep you posted, but only in this journal now. cuz it hurts Mandi too ( Read more... )

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soo here i am, not really using thing account sooo.... i'll use it for depressed crap, cuz i cn't on my other name. my mom found it, and gave it to my conseler, and they freaked out on me, and all this stuff, and it sucked alot. grrrrr, so ya ( Read more... )

so yeah, this is me paul, i made this journal mainly so i can have 2 for my different groups and what not.. don't know excatl how i'm going to use this one all the way yet.

stole the idea from Ally, sorry, but my other one of getting way too clutered and stuff. ugg