emotions/lost
I feel like crying...
I don't know why. I'm not depressed, I just feel like crying. I cried at the end of the Harry Potter book, but it wasn't enough. I need to cry more, for everythig that's happened. However, I find I can't cry by myself, or with others. The last person that made it possible for me to cry was Mandi, I could cry on her shoulder. But that's long gone. So now I can't cry. And everything just builds up inside me, and I don't know what to do, and .... it's not a nice feeling. I need to find a new place to cry so I can let some out. It is very frusterating and only makes it worse. I thought that i might be able to cry with Brittany, when I liked her, but that didn't go anywhere, so I've lost it. I feel lost, I can't find anybody. I get very lonely. At work, i'm by myself for hours and hours with nothing to do but think. I want to at least LIKE somebody, that's all I need. But there is nobody, at all. I don't even know if i can like someone anymore. What if I can't? What happens then? I'm so confused and frusterated.
.... God I wish I could cry.
I don't know why. I'm not depressed, I just feel like crying. I cried at the end of the Harry Potter book, but it wasn't enough. I need to cry more, for everythig that's happened. However, I find I can't cry by myself, or with others. The last person that made it possible for me to cry was Mandi, I could cry on her shoulder. But that's long gone. So now I can't cry. And everything just builds up inside me, and I don't know what to do, and .... it's not a nice feeling. I need to find a new place to cry so I can let some out. It is very frusterating and only makes it worse. I thought that i might be able to cry with Brittany, when I liked her, but that didn't go anywhere, so I've lost it. I feel lost, I can't find anybody. I get very lonely. At work, i'm by myself for hours and hours with nothing to do but think. I want to at least LIKE somebody, that's all I need. But there is nobody, at all. I don't even know if i can like someone anymore. What if I can't? What happens then? I'm so confused and frusterated.
.... God I wish I could cry.