My luggage is everywhere. Clean and dirty clothes are mixed  together and spread throughout my room and matt's too. I have so much on my mind and not enough time to begin to think about it. This only stresses me out so much more. Basil is curled up beside me in his bed. I missed him so much and I'm so glad to be back with him. I have an intro ( Read more... )

It's bliss for a little while ( Read more... )

I think it's important to take care of yourself and to change and evolve as you meet new experiences or find yourself getting bored with the inbetween.

But it's freakin HARD!!!!!

I'd like to actually get back in shape but finding the motivation is tricky. It's also hard being with the boy and wanting to cook great meals for him and finding things ( Read more... )

RIght now I just don't know how to feel. I've never been in a situation where I've felt that vulnerable and exposed.  The whole time we argued I felt it was trivial, as everything like this seems trivial in comparison to what we went through before, but I couldn't help but feel the need to go through it anyway. Last night, he said he feels crappy ( Read more... )

I wonder

are you yourself around me?

I've been creeping, I've been thinking, I've been... unnecessarily worried?

i can't help but think about the past ....and be worried about the future

it'd be nice to have someone call me hunny

i still wonder if people have those commercial worthy christmas moments

Don't know why I'm so hopefull. I don't get why I hope and hope that you'll feel the same way. Same old pattern. Shit that sucks.

in the past three nights I've had intense and crazy dreams

the first night I dreamt a baby had been left somewhere (like in a basket on a doorstep but not). I found it and was the only one who would take care of it and try and find a way to work out the situation.

The next night I had an incredibly visual dream where a ghost was 'haunting'/hanging ( Read more... )

I can't even believe that things are happening this quickly.


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