Well I was really drunk when I last posted, but yeah.. I think we all feel that way sometimes..I think insecurities are what subconsciously propels humans through their lives. You have to learn how to grow past the things you hate about yourself and turn insecurities into goals. Motivation is the key to life..I need more of it..and I'm really ( Read more... )

I've always had body issues. I became a woman in third grade, probably due to the hormones in the shitty food that poor families consume. I've always admired my thin, small boobed friends and spent years hiding under big sweatshirts. Only recently did I learn how to dress myself, and for awhile even learned how to embrace my curves. But I feel like ( Read more... )

=) my birthday was wonderful. I take back my feels of unappreciation. So many wonderful friends and family members wished me happy birthday..on thursday I had 15 dinner guests and we feasted on Italian before hitting the bars where more awesome friends joined! Today, my mom, sister, alyssa, tim, and carly took me to chiang mai thai for a second ( Read more... )

I feel chemically imbalanced. There is no other explanation for a person to be this sensitive. I feel like I can't handle minor problems without falling into a sea of panic ( Read more... )

Justin was supposed to be home this month, but found out this week that he was 1 of 8 selected for additional training, for 6 weeks, which won't even begin until 4 weeks after he graduates AIT. So he will be in Kentucky much longer than we had anticipated, and I will be staying in Minnesota longer. Which I guess is not terrible. But when you get ( Read more... )

Its official, I'm a married woman ( Read more... )

I'm getting married tomorrow ( Read more... )

I already want to edit my last entry. I always say things I don't mean. Lately at least ( Read more... )

even after writing in here since senior year of high school, i still get self conscious when i read over my entries. when i used to get high all the time, i would consider deleting every social network i belonged to out of paranoia. now the anxiety is a twenty four hour deal ( Read more... )

Labor Day weekend can't come soon enough.. I'm roadtripping with Dan, Andy and Carly to Kentucky the 2-6. Time seems to be crawling by, but what else is new. I can't decide whether or not I would like it to go by slower or faster.. I can't wait to be reunited with Justin, but I love the summer. I feel like a little part of everyone's happiness dies ( Read more... )