nobody likes you when youre 23
I feel chemically imbalanced. There is no other explanation for a person to be this sensitive. I feel like I can't handle minor problems without falling into a sea of panic.
I don't even really know how to explain it. But I'm so emotional.
Obviously I have good reasons to be stressed currently. I just wonder if I'm handling things normally or being dramatic.
My car was towed yesterday and it gave me the worst panic attack I've had in awhile... AFTER I had already gotten my car back. I was on the drive home bawling and not quite sure why, since my mom offered to give me any money I needed to get past it.
I have a hard time being alone lately. I sit and think about missing Justin and cry to myself. I know its pathetic but the tears just start coming and it surprises even me. I know I have a bunch of great people in my life, but in those moments, I feel utterly and completely separate. I feel lost. I feel like no one cares.
This whole rant started because my friend won't drive over. I always drive to her house, and its not fair. But when I voice this, she just doesn't acknowledge me. I don't know why a small thing like this is getting to me, I should be able to shrug it off. Instead I obsess over it and feel worthless and unappreciated.
I feel like I'm not good at anything. I feel defeated when I see that everyone is graduating college and my progress is so slow. I feel like it won't even matter when I finally do and I will always have to work a shitty job.
Its not that I don't have motivation. I just criticize myself to the point where I think I'm completely talentless.
Maybe I'm just a drama queen. Sigh.
I don't even really know how to explain it. But I'm so emotional.
Obviously I have good reasons to be stressed currently. I just wonder if I'm handling things normally or being dramatic.
My car was towed yesterday and it gave me the worst panic attack I've had in awhile... AFTER I had already gotten my car back. I was on the drive home bawling and not quite sure why, since my mom offered to give me any money I needed to get past it.
I have a hard time being alone lately. I sit and think about missing Justin and cry to myself. I know its pathetic but the tears just start coming and it surprises even me. I know I have a bunch of great people in my life, but in those moments, I feel utterly and completely separate. I feel lost. I feel like no one cares.
This whole rant started because my friend won't drive over. I always drive to her house, and its not fair. But when I voice this, she just doesn't acknowledge me. I don't know why a small thing like this is getting to me, I should be able to shrug it off. Instead I obsess over it and feel worthless and unappreciated.
I feel like I'm not good at anything. I feel defeated when I see that everyone is graduating college and my progress is so slow. I feel like it won't even matter when I finally do and I will always have to work a shitty job.
Its not that I don't have motivation. I just criticize myself to the point where I think I'm completely talentless.
Maybe I'm just a drama queen. Sigh.