firefly
Labor Day weekend can't come soon enough.. I'm roadtripping with Dan, Andy and Carly to Kentucky the 2-6. Time seems to be crawling by, but what else is new. I can't decide whether or not I would like it to go by slower or faster.. I can't wait to be reunited with Justin, but I love the summer. I feel like a little part of everyone's happiness dies when it's over. I'm curious what life is going to be like on the coast. I'm worried for my hot-blooded veins. I don't like to be sweaty. But then there's always the ocean.
I've been doing a lot of explaining lately. It seems like everyone has to know what everyone is doing with their lives. For someone who is socially awkward and shy, its hard for me to recognize when someone cares as a friend and when someone cares because they're wanting gossip and may turn around and slam me. I can't decide if I love or hate the human race sometimes. I strive to let love win. I want to imagine every person I consider a friend is genuine, but I know nobody has that. I know nobody is left out when it comes to gossip.
A big part of the appeal of my upcoming move, and relationship status is getting away from all the familiar faces that don't a lot of significance. I like the idea of sharing my time with only the people I love and trust. I am no longer ever concerned with being popular or liked.
I don't smile unless I mean it and I don't talk unless I have something to say; I don't enjoy constantly happy fake smilers or blabbermouths. Those people who talk so much they don't have thoughts. I don't want to hear what so and so said about so and so ..I want to hear what someone has to say about something. I want more creativity of the minds.
I'm not saying I'm surrounded by idiots, but I think there are a lot of young people selling themselves short, myself included sometimes. I want to live life in the larger picture.
Explore, dream, discover
I'm so excited to look the person I love most in the eyes and promise to share it all with him.
Recently I've experienced a sort of self discovery.. I know it came about from my time away from Justin.
And well, I guess I'm just getting older too. But I feel like I know myself better than ever.
I've been doing a lot of explaining lately. It seems like everyone has to know what everyone is doing with their lives. For someone who is socially awkward and shy, its hard for me to recognize when someone cares as a friend and when someone cares because they're wanting gossip and may turn around and slam me. I can't decide if I love or hate the human race sometimes. I strive to let love win. I want to imagine every person I consider a friend is genuine, but I know nobody has that. I know nobody is left out when it comes to gossip.
A big part of the appeal of my upcoming move, and relationship status is getting away from all the familiar faces that don't a lot of significance. I like the idea of sharing my time with only the people I love and trust. I am no longer ever concerned with being popular or liked.
I don't smile unless I mean it and I don't talk unless I have something to say; I don't enjoy constantly happy fake smilers or blabbermouths. Those people who talk so much they don't have thoughts. I don't want to hear what so and so said about so and so ..I want to hear what someone has to say about something. I want more creativity of the minds.
I'm not saying I'm surrounded by idiots, but I think there are a lot of young people selling themselves short, myself included sometimes. I want to live life in the larger picture.
Explore, dream, discover
I'm so excited to look the person I love most in the eyes and promise to share it all with him.
Recently I've experienced a sort of self discovery.. I know it came about from my time away from Justin.
And well, I guess I'm just getting older too. But I feel like I know myself better than ever.