And I'm suddenly so angry all over again.

last night i dreamt my mom died. and as my world was falling apart all around me, all i could think of doing was to call you. lately i keep remembering why you're one of the few constants in my life. and each time i realize it, i'm supremely glad and grateful all over again. :)

Last night, before I proceeded to get myself dressed, made up and smashingly tipsy, I was sitting on the floor of my closet, crying from the utter frustration of the day. It was a terrible day that had my self-esteem at an all-time low. My ego had just received a beating from being ignored by a gorgeous boy, among numerous other things.

I realized ( Read more... )

FML.

Someone put me out of my stupid awkward misery. GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD. It is exhausting to be this awkward! I humiliate myself!

Your eye contact is amazing. I don't have to wonder how you can be so deceiving. I get fooled into thinking we understand each other. I'm glad I know better. Friends are friends. :)

I like this. This quietness that comes from knowing you're special to me, but without the heavy backdrop of me yearning for you. I think you're great, and you're really attractive, but I know with absolute conviction that you're not for me. I love that the intense crush I had on you is fading into this comfortable friendship. Glad to knowknowknow ( Read more... )

I hate you. I hate you. I hate you ( Read more... )

I want to thank you for giving up on me. The experience has probably given me more issues to work out and deal with, but I know I'll be able to handle it and get over it eventually. If you had taken me back, I would never have been able to feel this happy. I feel more appreciated now than I've ever felt in those years with you. And I'm not even in ( Read more... )

Today was a great day. It started of with the Biochemistry exam that I didn't study for. I took it in the middle of a freezing cold room - so cold that I passed my exam without finishing it. :\ Stupid mistake. Boo.

Changed immediately after the exam and waited for the Bboys to finish. I grabbed money from 1010, because I left my money at home, as ( Read more... )

It's been disappointing today. I'm starting to think really hard if these are the people I want to be with. I love them, and I feel I belong when I'm with them, but sometimes I think I'm so desperate to belong with (to) people that I let myself be this way. I know it's not something they ask for, this level of devotion (?) - the surprises on ( Read more... )