i havent written in two months. so i wanted to break that. 

adults scare me so much. Iam not capable of talking to them in a normal manner, without being superficial and fake. Is that werid? Thats probably why I fear getting help from teachers because their so akward and unwelcoming. Its so cowincendental that I want to be a teacher.

Its just so overwelming and dissappointing when people change. Especially if that person used to mean a whole lot to you, and then their just differant. Its really hard because you cant say anything to the person becaue then its like your trying to control them and wanting them to be like they used to be. But then its really hard on you because you ( Read more... )

I wish my relationship with my mother was better. Its so frustrating. I will never talk to her about anything.

starting to run again.


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dose everyone suppose to have shit days? or just me

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is it possible to go back in french like take french two again as a senior just to freashen up? anyways swimming starts...tommarrow.
and i have fully loaded myself with extra storage food for the week. so i should be ready.

i've slept for the past week, for days at a time. I enjoy it, its like a drug, because than i can stay up all night reading and I don't blink in eye ( Read more... )

i had to play for graduation tonight, in the pit. I didn't really actually play though,well i mean i did, but it was so soft so no one could hear, iam not a confident person, when i dont know what iam doing. but besides the point. Graduations always make me teary eyed, I didnt but if i was watching the graduation on tv by myself i would of cried.  ( Read more... )