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Its just so overwelming and dissappointing when people change. Especially if that person used to mean a whole lot to you, and then their just differant. Its really hard because you cant say anything to the person becaue then its like your trying to control them and wanting them to be like they used to be. But then its really hard on you because you will constantly miss the old person. Ian and I lost everything. I miss him and then i think that maybe i will feel better when i talk to him on the phone but it only gets worse. We're sterile and dry. Our conversations are boring and competitive. He dosen't laugh anymore. He's not interested in anything. He's exactly what i thought hed turn out to be once he went to college. So I wish I could just delete all those memories.