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i had to play for graduation tonight, in the pit. I didn't really actually play though,well i mean i did, but it was so soft so no one could hear, iam not a confident person, when i dont know what iam doing. but besides the point. Graduations always make me teary eyed, I didnt but if i was watching the graduation on tv by myself i would of cried. I guess you could say I am emotional person? because I just think that in two years thats going to be me walking across that stage. but than i thought about skipping graduation. I loved the girls shoes as they walked across I picked out in my head which ones were my favorite, since i was so close. Ive decided I want white stelletos like 4 inched and closed all the way around.closed always makes me feel sexy. just closed not open, open dosent because you could have them fly off, and thats not sexy its ditzy. anyways the purpose of this entry was to talk about i think its a quote, someone said it, about how people will always "fade in and out of your life" well I dont want people to fade out, its scares me that I will know people for a little while than they will live their lives and i will live mine and we will never know each other ever again, because we will be that distant. and they will die and i might not even know, but if i heard about them dying it would just be weird. so thats why my goal, is to try to keep in touch with everyone somehow and not let them fade. I am sure I too will fade from peoples lives.