As each day passes,
Giving up humanity...
Back into the game.

A gift from my past?
The bittersweet memories...
Afraid to be me.

Sometimes it amazes me just how suddenly a shift in my mindset can change everything around me. It is time I stop holding myself back from who I am and so I will sink into the darkness that is within me. I'll take the strength I find there and use it to burn a path to push forward on ( Read more... )

I wish I could sit here and say that what I told her last night was exaggerated. To tell you that I am not really that far down in the pits... However I must admit that I was being quite literal with what I said ( Read more... )

You've made so many things in my life into bittersweet experiences. Nostalgic doesn't even quite cover it. I look at these things and I just want to cry with a small smile on my face. What ever happened to those times... and why can I not forge new ones ( Read more... )

I have not had dreams like the ones I have been having since the last time I had a really bad fever. They have all fit within that realm of things that exaggerate or alleviate my pains, but sometimes they are bizarre ( Read more... )

First you break me down. Then you take the rest from my sleep. Next you throw me into another shit-storm of a workday. Then you top it all off by trying to coax me into staying again. This time with money? Do I look like a whore to you? I am not going to stay by your side just because you have another hundred in your pocket ( Read more... )

I asked the question
The answer, I expected
Feelings I did not...

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( I am really tired and probably failed some editing... Also wall of text warning: )

Over the course of the last month I have watched as I slowly slip back into that dark place inside of myself. The cold earth of my inner being where I go to seek solace from the world around me. I spent a year climbing out of this cave and now I find myself falling back into its depths. Part of me feels defeated coming back here. The other part ( Read more... )