Since LJ has died, as FB destroys journaling, online relationships, and interpersonal communication, I have decided to close out this journal. There is no point in sticking around because no one uses LJ these days and all the great communities now lay in ruins. There is no longer any appeal. I will not succumb to FB, however. Trying to form and ( Read more... )

Once again, after BUSTING my ass trying to provide interesting educational opportunities to my students, they give me low scores on evaluations ( Read more... )

Do they die? Yes they do. After 42 years, this has finally sunk in. The state of limbo eventually gives way. To what, I have not yet figured out. Disappointment? Resentment? Nothingness ( Read more... )

Yet again my student evaluations are poor. I bust my ass, and it is all for nothing. I don't know what the secret formula is to get the kiddies to like me. I don't know why they rate me so low now, but I don't think I'll ever figure it out and I only grow more depressed and resentful. I cannot take any more of this kind of disappointment. And ( Read more... )

My beauty queen has died.

I called her that because, after she inexplicably lost a tooth as a young dog, we used to joke about her being a beauty queen from West Virginia- blonde, ditzy, and toothless.

I used to sing a version of Abba's "Dancing Queen" to her. I will miss doing that.


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My life is not my own. I do not even have to be a mother to know this.
I am simply a vessel that everyone dumps their shit into. The more shit they dump, the less room for anything else. I don't think I will ever be happy again. I guess I should just accept that.

I don’t know, but it is a fact-I cannot stop thinking about what other people are doing and/or have done and feeling annoyed by it. I get into these funks where I focus incessantly on people from my past ( Read more... )

If ever you see or hear the name Miriam Grossman, run away. Very fast. She is an evil and incredibly stupid person who is dangerous because she feeds other incredibly stupid people's stupidity ( Read more... )

Who would have thought that the woman who deep fries mayonnaise could possibly have diabetes ( Read more... )

Never in my life have I worked so hard and never before have a failed at absolutely everything I do.

For how many years can one be beaten down before they give up? Looks like I will find out.