i turn 18 in t-19 days and counting (not counting today cuz it sucked ass) i went and took my compass test for school today and it made me feel... very lost, like i've felt lost for awhile now but its really starting to kick me in the ass. i did alright in the reading and the writing but the math fucked me over, cuz I FUCKING HATE MATH i pretty ( Read more... )

yesterday was fun i got to hang out with the wonderful Noelle,at the country sun which was loads of fun!! we tried like hell for that little brown pig with the orange feet and one day victory will be ours and that pig will be in your hot little hands, how ever i want that very attractive young man from the country sun in MY hot little hands, shit ( Read more... )

so i feel like absolute crap today! stayed home from school those little fuckers at work are all sick and their getting me sick! but I'm still going to work today! i gotta save for colorado, so I'm gonna beat the little bastards at their own game I'm going to infect them with my sick amoebas which will over throw their sick amoebas (because I'm ( Read more... )

so i learned today that vaginas are like oysters and when they get excited they squirt!! now did any of you females know this?? i thought it that was pretty god damn funny, thank you Joshua for making my fucking day! HAVE A GREAT FUCKING DAY

TY IS COMING HOME TODAY!!! WOO HOO!! i am excited to see that fuck its been too long. tomorrow is the rehearsal very exciting everything is coming together and before we know it saturday will be tmrw! holy crap did time fly by.

so i was wondering if i could feel any more empty and i woke up this morning and realized yes it was possible! i feel so lost and out of place, not like with people or anything like that but with where i am in my life, i have never really been in a position where i would have to begin figuring things out all on my own and now that everything is ( Read more... )

so friday i definitely had a panic attack, not cool at all, totally opted out of 6th hour which i felt bad doing but i couldnt breathe let alone stop crying so yeah. exactly a week and a half my brother in law comes home, which is exciting! the wedding we have all been anticipating since June (i've been anticipating it since then i dunno about ( Read more... )

so im sitting here listening to the postal service, and i came across these pictures of my mother when she was 3 yrs old and i began to cry. my mother was the most wonderful woman, she took care of everybody before she even thought about herself, and she amazed me with her love for everyone, but 4 years ago she had a stroke and it changed us all ( Read more... )

so in my last entry i mentioned a certain boy that was upset with me, today i got the oppertunity to talk to him...so i gathered all the courage i could muster and knocked on his bedroom door, he seemed surprised to see me standing there but allowed me in none the less. i was shaking terribly like i'd almost hit a deer, and i asked him if we were ( Read more... )

i discovered this evening that i am hated by somebody that i care very much about, and its my own stupid fault. over the summer i fell for this boy, but he didnt fall with me, things changed...we changed and after awhile we didnt even make eye contact when we were in the same room together, which was sad for me because that tends to happen ( Read more... )