so last night at like 12 oclock in the morning, right before i ( Read more... )

i'm so tired all the time.  seriously, i can barely handle two jobs as it is.  how am i going to handle two jobs and going to college too?  i'm officially going to exhaust myself. oh well, it's all for the greater good.  what that is though, i do not know, but i'm sure i'll figure it out.

oh and i miss.... well i just miss.

no sense.  i'm ( Read more... )

ughh.  so i know everyone is doing the whole cheesy reminiscing over 2004 livejournal entry, and i had really tried to control myself, but unfortunately my time has come.

2004 was a terrible year.  Most likely one of the worst that i ( Read more... )

it was about this time last year that it all started.  how much of a difference a year makes.

while everyone enjoys their time with their family and friends, i want ( Read more... )

i had a terrible dream last night ( Read more... )

i know that i already updated today.  and i don't care.  i just have an urge to tell everyone my problems.

i'm not angry at anyone, but in general people need to stop complaining ( Read more... )

i feel like crap.  i hate this.  i'm sad.  and stupid.  and blahh.  i don't know why i feel like this, but i do know that i feel mediocre again.  really incredibly mediocre.  and all of my faults and flaws are so prominent to me.  blahhh.  i'm so angry at myself for getting like this.

i miss my daddy.

I absolutely love the fact that instead of being concerned with things that actually matter, i spend my time stressing over something that was so completely pointless from the start.  I kinda want to slap myself at times like this.

Why is it that I'm always the one who gets played??  Can someone ( Read more... )

well, i'm coming home.  i like binghamton, i do.  and i think under different circumstances i would love it and be able to stay.  however the circumstances are not different.

i came back to school because I wanted my dad to be proud of me ( Read more... )

i just want to say thank you to those of you who have been here for me.  you're incredible people.  i love you.  and i thank you.

the cards were wonderful.  the words were beautiful.  and the love was something i had never experienced from friends before. you are beautiful people.

this is so incredibly hard.  without everyone who has been ( Read more... )