I've got a girl problem
I've got a drug problem
And I don't want to solve them
They sit right where I want them

Have you given up yet? Was it too much? Did you realize it was all wrong?
I have. I did. I'm done.
I'm 20 now, shouldn't my life be on track? any track at all? 
I'm Hungry and tired and addicted and sore.I always need more, i always want more.
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So I'm 20 now.
I'm going out tonight, and I already know it's going to suck.
but i got my first tattoo yesterday, FINALLY.
It didn't hurt at all for the most part, except when he went over the bones.
and that's it for today.

add underoath to the list.
what the hell.
i don't even like going to shows.
seriously.
i don't.
at all.

The past few days I have had one hour of sleep, gone to a horrible show, and drank far too much. I'm tired and I miss my bed.
I want to go home.
Too many lesbians and drinking games.
I MISS MY FUCKING BED.

What Do You Know About Love?
Starts with a smile
Moves oceans
Lasts for awhile
She turns a corner
And you lose your mind
And you think how unkind, how unkind
What Do You Know About Love?
What's written in your book
The smallest distraction
And you have to look
She's in your water
And you're in your head
Somewhere else

This is what I think, and I came to this ( Read more... )

I just found out that I have to go to 2 shows that I really have no urge to see ( Read more... )

secretly falling apart.

You are quiet and you try to pay attention and look nice and make people believe that you care.
You do things secretly that make you want to scream, but smile and make sure everyone knows just how happy you choose to act that day.
You breathe and blink and talk like everyone else.
it's always there. Right behind you, telling you ( Read more... )

"I find the map and draw a straight line, over rivers,farms,and state lines,
the distance from here to where you'd be, it's only finger lengths that i see
i touch the places where i'd find your face, my fingers in creases of distant dark places"

My fingers are frozen and I just got back from calgary.
I did 2 days of work in less than one, so I could ( Read more... )

don't break too many hearts.don't take too many arrows in the chest.
cry comfortably, let us all know what you're thinking.
is there a gesture i could use to clearly express,i'm at an utter loss for words?
is there a part of you that's torn? that's larger than life?
i've got a speech to make.
followed by a big parade.
closed eyes.
all charades go ( Read more... )

I love this idea, and i think everyone ( or the two people who MAYBE still read this, should do this is their own journal.please and thank you ( Read more... )