as drunken men find flaws in science
"I find the map and draw a straight line, over rivers,farms,and state lines,
the distance from here to where you'd be, it's only finger lengths that i see
i touch the places where i'd find your face, my fingers in creases of distant dark places"
My fingers are frozen and I just got back from calgary.
I did 2 days of work in less than one, so I could come home and NOT have to sleep in a hotel.
I'm tired and my mind is going a million miles a minute.
For the 6 hours of driving I listened to Music on my mp3 player.
I didn't realize until today that almost every single song I have on there, has this..direct connection to someone in my life.
Every song had some memory attatched to it, and all day I have been thinking about it, thinking about the connections.
Thinking about..the people in my life, past and present.
I realized that, there has only been a small handful of people that were actually friends, the good kind, the kind that you need in your life, the kind you can talk to, that you love unconditionally even when they fuck up,because you know sometime soon you're going to fuck up too, and you know that they will always be there for you, and love you anyways. That kind.
I've hung out with alot of people, i have thought alot of people WERE my friends, but very few actually were.
Now I know I can't sleep, because i'm thinking too much.
sometimes I wish there was an off switch for that so i could get some fucking sleep.
oh well.
p.s. thank you for showing me this song. i listened to it about 20 times today.