changed333

new one

if anyone cares to know.

i'm not even gonna sit here and explain the things i know that people don't. i'm standing up for him and myself, but i'm not gonna lay my whole life out for people to see, and why should i give you the satisfaction of trying to get me to scramble to find ways to justify my actions. I shouldn't have to explain myself or my life to anyone. Did you ( Read more... )

i'm getting married

ya know, all in all i know i'm happy in my relationship. but there are friends i miss and things i wish i could go back in time and fix. things that can never be the same again. i wish it all didn't have to happen ( Read more... )

I went to a funeral this week. It was so weird how like, at a viewing... they stick pictures of the dead person up, and like... in a buffet line style you go through this line and look at the person living and happy and at the end of the pictures you see them dead. laying still and lifeless in a box... it's rather disrespectful... and cynical.. ( Read more... )

i think life is in recovery. i know life is in recovery.

things will be different now.

hopefully, a lot more peaceful.

time is ticking ( Read more... )

i really just want to get away. to go away somewhere even just for a weekend.

i can't take it anymore.

i've come to a realization that i'm not living for myself at all anymore ( Read more... )

i feel really empty at the moment. like my existance is meaningless. this is no one's fault but my own. it's an inner thing. like seasonal or chemical or something. maybe i feel alone because i am sitting here alone. or maybe because since brian's at work, i miss him. i've only seen him for 2 hours today, and i'm not used to that. or maybe ( Read more... )