hey everyone .. gosh its been quiet sometime since ive written and that picture is so gawd awful old! now that i have a myspace, thats pretty much what i use ... but lets have a quick update ... i dont work at target anymore .. im now a nanny in columbia heights ... zach turned 5 on november 11th so we are preparing him to go to school in the fall ( Read more... )

Being Drunk + Running in plat forms falling off dance floors = broken ankle

WHEN WILL THIS FUCKING WAR END?  i just got word that when scott comes home from alabama ... june of 2008 .... he will be home for a little while but in 2009 he will be going to Iran. He hasnt even made it to Alabama yet ... Currently at the moment driving to his first destination of Georgia.... i have been a wreck over alabama ... had a break down ( Read more... )

Here we start the thing i have dreaded and cried about for 5 years ... i thought it would never be here .. and now here it is ... as of 5 minutes ago he has walked out my front door for 14 months ... and the second the door closed .. tears POURED from my eyes .... i have tried to prepare myself for this but can you REALLY TRUELY prepare yourself ( Read more... )

So Zach has to have surgery on April 26th .. and this is something im stressed out about ... he is having his tonsils removed! I had mine removed in the 3rd grade and ended up back in the hospital dehydrated .. so im a little nervous ... Well today he had his Pre-Op .. and it was a BAD experience. At first the nurse tried to send me home, telling ( Read more... )

I am SO confused .. i do NOT remember writing that last entry ... Its all true BUT I dont remember writing it... I have NO recolletion of it AT all! Was I really that drugged up in the hospital? thats scary because if i dont remember that. what else dont i remember?? Anyways for  a quick update .. i spent 5 nights in the hospital, 5 long, scary ( Read more... )

seriously im sick of this hospital bed. i just want to go home, im teffirfied of the hospital. i need ppl here aound the clock and i dont have it Dakota was here all day thursday and then went home, then came back thursday night which was good cuz i kept waking up scared and screaming out for my mom, zach and scott. dakota came up with the boys on ( Read more... )

Lately I have been lost in a world of confusion … I wonder what its really like to be 22 .. I went from 17 to 40 in a matter of 9 months. I have stood by to watch my sons dad be 19 .. 20 .. 21 .. 22. 23.. and now 24 .. each year living like he should be, each year being allowed to be the age he really is. And yet I skipped all those years, skipped ( Read more... )

This weekend has been a good one. Scott came home about 330 am saturday morning... yea a little early and knocking at the door was not the greatest wake up call but whatever ... we went and picked zach up in stacy and hung out there for a wee bit ... we went grocery shopping .. watched the hockey game .. and then put zach to bed , we finished the ( Read more... )

Felt such a relief in my life! A 5 year search is over! Now we just have to move forward!